how can so much change

in one week?

the list so far:
-lost my best friend.
-had all my future plans change.
-only getting a place with cassie now.
-love life is getting better...
-i fucked up completely.

this is really all my fault. it still sucks tho.

thats life it'll go on.. just not the way i wanted it to

 

see??????!!! i'm gone one week, and i have no idea what happened to you

-what happened to kelly??
-how's love life getting better???

 

i dont feel like going into it right now im going to go watch a funny movie to cheer me up

 

okay honey, you do whatever makes you feel cheered

but look, i had several big fights with my best friend, every time it seemed like a tragedy, that we'll never ever speak again, but we got over it every time...it just takes A LOT of talking about it, even if the other person doesn't want to talk

i hope things work out, in the end

 

...i'll be waiting

 

My whole life changed in only a day.. and all the future plans and everything.. It really sucks that you can never really trust on anything or anyone.

 

I'm sorry.
((((hugs))))
Next week is a new week (duh)....it might change back to the way you want it.

 

I'm loving you Hev ...

I hope you things work out for you

Just keep that beautiful smile on your face.

 

Rox - I'm actually thinking this wont turn out ok. I did an unforgivable thing (like i said, its really all my fault) and well.. she just cant forgive no matter how many times I say I'm sorry. either she needs a lot of time.. or things will never be the same again.. either way, everything's different, so I just need to move on with my life.

KozmicBlue - "It really sucks that you can never really trust on anything or anyone."
that's the truest thing I have ever heard.

Meg & Josh - thanks guys, those posts were really nice to read.

 

I like to think i'm pretty trustworthy I mean i'd sell my own Grandma to the highest bidder but aside from that


i'm sorry heather

 

awww im sorry
hope it doesn't ruin your trip
and i really hope things end up working for you
i really really do

 

I am so sorry to hear about that. I hope that things get better. It seems that the biggest changes to our lives are the ones that happen in a very short time, not the things that seem to take forever. I was actually just thinking about this. I remember an event that changed me forever, that was about a year and a half ago. Since then, I have not been the same person by any means.
Consider yourself lucky/blessed to have had a best friend. I have a very closed personality, by which I mean I don't "let people in" very easilly, and I usually go at things very alone and independantly. This has made my life to the point that I actually just got my first real "best friend" within the past year. Even with him, I find it a little difficult to "open up" and share my actual feelings and such. I am constantly worried about other people finding out stuff like that and using it against me or thinking less of me or something.
I wish my love life were getting better...

 

I meant it more like.. in the sense that things and situations change.. and people change.. So you can't really trust on anything staying the same or going the way you want it to go.. So in the end of the day, you can only trust on yourself and never count on anyone else.. But then I'm just bitter so you might not wanna listen to me

 

Um

You've tainted my naive young mind

Hahaha only kidding, nothing could tame my insurmountable bounciness

You shouldn't be bitter Jo, you're still (relatively) young after all!

 

Ahahahah oh I love you Hugh, you always make me laugh so hard I snort

I hope you'll never have to experience anything that will make you a bitter old man.

Ooh speaking of bitter old men.. My upstairs neighbour grunted at me today.

 

Hahaha, i'm glad I have that effect

Did I tell you I can parallel park? Well, I can parallel park!

If I ever become bitter i'll just dedicate my life to the pursuit of money, and become dutch, and wear cashmere...

Hahaha I grunt at people...then again i'm 17 and horribly antisocial....was it a friendly grunt?

 

Ooh I'm proud of you!! You can take your driving test soon then, can't you?

I have an interesting image of you inside my head now. It's a little bit disturbing.

I dunno if it was a friendly grunt but lets pretend it was. He's done that before too.. I'm always really friendly to everyone and always say hi to him and ask how he is and all he ever does is grunt. I'm starting to think he fancies me. :H

 

Not long now! My instructors started talking about driving the test routes, and i've only got to learn bay parking and emergency stop!

By disturbing, you mean sexy right :H

If you record the grunt i'll translate it for you, bearing mind every greunt equates to a word in the English language it's a pretty delicate procedure

You'd be amazed at the similarity between "horse" and "sister"....


Hahhahah "i'm starting to think he fancies me" brilliant

 

i love you heather.

i'd say i'm here to talk to if you need it, but i have a feeling Pauly is much better for that job than me.

But I do love you.

 

thanks maryanne

and meli.

this place is better than therapy..