She knew that it was her time to shine but she was trapped in her own standards. The way out wasn’t good enough, it seemed that she just wanted to vanish from her existence and appear in a better one. Knowing that his will never happen she had to decide if she should forget all of her lies and move on the only way possible or stick to what she said and go nowhere. Dreams as big as oceans beckoned her forward. Changes were inevitable but she clutched her past as if there would be nothing to cling to in the future. No one was going to save her there’s a remedy but they don’t know her pain. She hid what she really wanted from everyone sometimes even herself. Only to lie awake at night thinking about all the things that had to get done. Her life seemed calm from the outside but her mind was always busy. She never wanted anyone to know her dreams because she had been hurt to many times. Being teased had taken away any confidence she had not willing to give up she replaced it with kindness and lies. Making up stories about people and places that don’t even exist in her dreams. All she ever wanted was to be loved it didn’t matter if they loved her for what she’d never be. It was better than what she really was. They all knew a happy girl that loved to have fun and that’s better than the real girl that sat at home alone and loved only her TV and razor blade.
