Hide Your Random Feelings.

What random feelings do you want to hide?

I want to hide the feeling that sometimes I feel like a frustrated megalomaniac and that I have narcissistic tendencies.

I also want to hide that I have precious time for sympathy pep talks and good advices. If people are going to do the wrong thing they will generally do the wrong thing of their own accord.

I also want to hide that I lack physical intimacy in my life and feel unloved.

There I've been brutally honest.

Sometimes people have to vent their spleen.

 

...all of them?

Is that an acceptable answer?

 

Yes that is acceptable

 

Irm on the outside:
Irm on the inside: burn it all!

 

I want to hide the fact that I’m afraid a lot of the time.

 

When I snap into a mood quickly I don't want to smile I just want to say alright you lot I've had enough of your shit and I'm going home.

 

Same

People to me all the time: you're so calm. Do you ever get upset ?
Me on the inside: i hate you dont talk to me
Me on the outside: i'm fine! Everything is fine!

 

I always appear calm, cool, and in control, but inside, I'm a nervous reck. I'm a control freak not because I think I know what's best for everyone and everything, but because I can only flourish in my comfort zone, and if I'm in control, I can create said comfort zone.

Outside of that, I'm just in the passenger seat doing 80 and heading toward a brick wall, with no seat belt, hoping for the best.

I only appear to have my shit together. My true mantra is, "help me."

 

Not hidin' mine---Wish I had a lover. Lady friend died 4 years ago. Used to get 1st, 2nd and third looks. Now I don't get any due do all my cute going away!! (if I ever had any)

 

Heart on sleeve here. No hiding a goddamn thing. So, the only thing I strive for is to be kind no matter what I'm feeling.

Unless I feel like being mean will be funny. Or I'm looking to hit someone.

 

i have one of those kinds of jobs where i can't tell a sycophant to shove a cactus up his ass. and a lot of the time, i really want to.

 

I'm usually pretty confused about how I feel. I don't really know how I feel about many things. Even this, my brain is all, "Do you really know how you feel about things?" No, I guess I don't brain. SHUT UP!

 

At times, I feel unaware of myself and surroundings... almost to the point of being socially retarded.

For example, when I was paying entry to a museum with my mother, the very pretty woman who worked at the counter was making small talk with us. I had low energy, and didn't say much back to her.

Once my mother and I got inside the museum, she turned to me and said "You know, that woman was flirting with you, and you didn't seem to notice." So yeah, I don't even realize it when girls are hitting on me, until after it's too late.

 

I'm also retarded when it comes to realizing women are coming on to me. I've probably passed up on good potential relationships at least three times in my life. The most recent one I really regret. I was having a drink in the pub before my life drawing class. I was sitting at the bar. This really quite tasty blonde sits next to me. She starts talking and says "I sat here because I just wanted to get closer to you." I told her I had to go to my class and left. Recognizing when you've potentially pulled? I wish there was an app for that.

 

Same. I also try to be kind.

 

I hide my dissatisfaction and act like everything is just fine. Oftentimes things are deeply not okay. I do this because no one likes a whiner.

I have learned to live with less of what I really want.

 

I got sick of beating myself up, so I don't do it anymore.

"I was ever aware of the great number of conflicting elements within me. I felt they were literally swarming around inside me, these conflicting elements. I knew they had been swarming inside me all my life and they were begging to be released, but I would not let them out, I wouldn't, I deliberately wouldn't let them out. They tormented me shamefully; they brought on convulsions and, well, finally I grew bored of them, goodness how they bored me!"

Notes From The Underground, Fedor Dostoevsky

 

I actually do hide everything, i need to get better at that and learn how to reach out to people. But i feel like i've pigeon holed myself into this role where people around me just take it for granted i'll be strong and happy go lucky. And sometimes i would just rather be weak and sad. But it would feel weird leaning on people at this point

Well....i've revealed too much. :runs and hides: