This is gonna be long but please bare with me and help me. I have liked this guy for a little over 2 years. But he thinks I'm an insane, weird little girl. Two summers ago(of 07')-I went to this camp that he was working at, and I meet this girl there that was younger than me and neighbors with my crush. I only asked her 2 questions(how she knows my crush, and what happened to his face(he got the hives one of the days at the camp). But she ended up telling her mom that I was asking about him, and the mom blew everything out of proportion saying that I was attacking her daughter with questions about my crush. So ever since then he's hated me. His family forgave me and they actually like me(I hope to think so at least) but it seems like my crush is almost holding a grudge against me. I really want us to become friends this summer, but I have some problems surrounding what I want. -He's 2 years older than me at a college 3 hours away(but he's coming home for the summer in a month) -We aren't friends -We've never had a conversation before -He hates me But I really want to try to talk to him as a friend or a friendly aquantince. What should I do? Help? (My brother and his brother play baseball together on a team, so I'm hoping that because my crush has been gone from home for so long, he will come to some games).
If he is attending college 3 hours away, you must not see him very much. I do not believe you like him as much as you say you do. Perhaps you just need somebody to like because you're lonely. I don't see this happening for you unless you do something drastic like approach him and have a decent conversation with him (which you never had before: another point as to how you most certainly must not know who he is). That was two years ago, if they aren't over it by now, then don't try to get into that family, they're the strange ones. I am sorry that you held onto this for so long, but it is very unlikely it is going to happen. Besides, if you didn't under exaggerate that scenario with the questions, then for him to think you are weird is a bit strange, considering no one but yourself knew what happened.
The emotion you are feeling is simply asking you to change. The question is; what sorts of people would you be surrounding yourself with, if you decide to change in this way. If you think it will work to bring him close to you, do what your feelings say. If you dont think it is worth it(I dont, if this person has not approached you with any communication and simply listens to other people about you, its not) fuck it and focus your thoughts on something else. The feeling will take a while to go away, but just keep chipping at it and eventually you will strike the core and bang, its like you never met him.
