I just signed up for this forum. I wouldn't call myself a hippie exactly, more of a metalhead, but I still would like to make friends. I only have a few. I am 24 years old and live in the states, Virginia to be exact. I have only had two girl friends my entire life, and they both where doing it for there own personal reasons. The first was bet five dollars to go out with me, to worsen the blow, we met at church. After her sentence was up she told me the entire deal while laughing in my face. The second was getting back at her abusive boyfriend who dumped her when she ran to his parents. I was just starting to get my trust back for people. Much worse though, I was finally starting to get a little confidence that people thought I was attractive. She took him back one week after we started dating. I got royally made fun of in middle school. I was young and didn't know who I wanted to be at the time. Bullies called me names like Redneck, and Racist, allthough I wasn't. I thought about suicide many times but never had the courage to do it. I'm now glad I did not. The first girl friend was in this time of my life, so that hurt even more. As soon as I entered high school, things changed big time. I met a guy by the name of Nathan who befriended me and introduced me to the gothic scene. These people had all went through the same things I had and we made friends quickly. They knew what I had gone through, and new how to deal with it without hurting myself or others. After a while I kind of faded away from the Gothic scene and starting listening to Heavy Metal. I love the life I lead now, but still feel lonely every once in a while. I have been single for so long, that I feel as if I had a girlfriend I would not know what to do, or how to act. I'd be lost but know exactly where I was. You all probably didn't need to know this, but I don't like holding secrets or grudges. Getting it out in public is a good way for me to get over the frustrations. It is hard for me to trust anyone at all, even though I know I have merely had bad luck. I feel like I've dug myself a deep enough hole, so I'll leave for now. I'll be back sometime in the near future, but as for now, I'm going to bed, lol. Jessie AKA: TwerpBassMan By the way, I have a MySpace page, with a lot of pictures of myself and some of what I do for fun. MySpace.com/TwerpBassMan comment if you'd like, if not that's fine as well.
Hello and Welcome. I thought your post was interesting and that it was great for you to open up. I hope u enjoy the forums.
hey man,welcome, sounds like we have some stuff in common,ive learned to ignore what people think,but im know youll find lots of nice people here. peace,love
we got the same sorta thing in our school - the ones going "you gypo" (racisim to gypsies) are also the ones calling others racist and laughing, sounds. But the goths/greabos are the bullys (not racists) in our school!! But asians/black ppl are not bullied and id know (asian) Don't worry on the gf front cos to be truthful ive only had one bf and he was a jerk - plus my folks want me to hav an arranged marriage!! What bands do you like?? im not sure if its heavy metal but ive found i like Korn now as previosly i hated it but then again i used to hate Linkin Park in primary school and now i luv em!! D'ya like Stone Sour? or Slipknot?? haha jus as i wrote that a stone sour song came on!! lol what're the chances... hope you like the forums!! oh yea and WELCOME!! oh yea and I hope you feel better,
another metalhead bassist. you know... i'm reading this and you remind me alot of myself, bro... i got made fun of in middle school too, and i have major trust issues also. alot of people are fucked up, dude, and it's sad that's the way they are... but whatever... fuck'm. let'm live their lives, they can fuck it up ALLL by themselves. welcome to the forum, i'm new too, but welcome anyway. haha.
welcome to the forums! :cheers: I know exactly where you're coming from - I didn't date much growing up either, and in school I had few if any friends! It was certainly hard at times.
Thank you to everyone. This site is definately busy and it seems as if everyone here is very nice. Thank you again to everyone for the alarmingly warm welcome, I may actually post here more often. Sorry it took so long for my reaction, I worked 110 hours over the last two weeks, outside, lol. Needless to say, I was quite tired. Have a great day everyone. Jessie AKA: TwerpBassMan
