Most of today wasn't too bad, just long and boring. Tonight's been crappy, though. My ex left the house a total mess and my son was grumpy all evening (I don't think he had a nap). Then my "friend" calls me and we get into an argument again about the argument we had a couple of weeks ago. The first argument was about why he didn't show up for our date or answer his phone when I called. This second one was about how he thinks my friends hate him and how my standards are too high for him. Is it so wrong to actually want someone to care about me? Does it make me a bad person to want a relationship instead of meaningless sex? It's like he was only interested in me because he thought he could get some no-strings-attached sex out of me. Well guess what, it ain't gonna happen! Yes, I'm single now, but that doesn't mean I'm a slut. Sexuality is sacred and should only happen between two people who care about each other and come together in joy. I don't think you have to be abstinent till marriage or even be in love to have sex, but you have to care about the other person's feelings and their wishes and not selfishly take for your own pleasure. I feel like every time I think I can trust somebody, they rip my trust out from under me and my world falls apart again.
Yes! I tend to double-post things like this because I can get a totally different perspective from this end. I like having two ways to look at things.
i would just remain single for the time being. build a strong relationship with your son. this time is most likely hard on him since the break up of his mama and daddy. having new guys in the picture may be hard on him. good luck mama!
