have you ever thought

anything can happena t any time in life

even aliens may suddenly take you over

someone may just shoot you in the head

you might enter another reality at any time

those are all possible just a very low chance

and theres a posiblilty that there is a hell and your going there

how can you be happy knowing these things

 

cause im here now and if i live happy i know that im going to the write place in the afterlife whatever it is or maybe ill come back as a bird and fly around singing peace and love i also belive that if u are good to people every day things will be good

 

i always think about these type of things in my astronomy class.you know...how space goes on for ever.and pretty much anything is possible.and we just might never know about it.it sometimes freaks me out a bit.but i doubt anything will happen in my life time.or even my future childrens' life time.the universe is beautiful and filled with mysteries.i just kind of appreciate it.how everything out there is perfect.and how it all comes together.

 

yes... sometimes when i am in the bathroom or laying in bed,,, i feel really safe, almost like nothing can get me now that i am home, but then i think.... anyone can just bust the gosh damn door down at anytime and murderlize me, it could happen right now... right now at this very second. awwwwwwwwww..... it would really suck to die if you were on the shitter, like on pulp fiction.. imagine finding that body man... nastified man... or when you go to a store and something can happen when you least expect it.. someone could pull a gun or knife out at anytime and just start going crazy....

as far as hell goes, i don't think there is one.... i think everybody goes to heaven no matter what they did. it's like you can tell somebody to go to hell because you think they did something wrong, you can hate them with all your might and just know in your heart that they are going to hell.. but when it comes to family and friend and your sister or your brother or someone you are really close to does the same thing..... you easily forgive them... where i'm going with this is that nobody goes to hell.... maybe i'm wrong but people are crazy.. it's just the results of a crazy ass world. i have a big heart though, i've never done anything too whacko to ever hurt anybody else.. i just thought that if one of my family members did something that other people thought was totally wrong, i'd forgive them.. it's all about forgiving man... but then there's also the levels of heaven and hell. the top level is people who are extremely good people and go to church and what not... the second level is people who believe in god, lie, but aren't really all that bad, the third level is just pending... the fourth level is pretty much hell and people just visit eachother.. the people from hell can't go up but the people from up can go down to visit there family and what not. and uhh... yeah... so forth.. the people in hell spend eternity in there worst fears.... such as drowning, being attacked by all the insects and spiders they murdered, burning, being murdered......... i could go all day but i won't cause this is getting kind of whacko... and it's making me want to run back upstairs.. it's kind of scary being down here all alone.. i wish i had some cheeba.. i mine as well give up on drugs..

 

I'm more scared of things like that happening to people I know. Kinda pathetic, but I can't help it.

Not too arsed about stuff happening to me, an alien abduction would at least be better than exams.

 

maybe you're just a very caring person

 

HairyCarey holds a big heart

 

i for a weird reason, always feel depressed in the evening, or when its dark outside, and ill be leaving in my own little reality, sometimes not being conscious about the other people surrounding me ... and when i do see people around me during that phase, they'll seem very weird to me.

 

Well... I used to think like that all the time. Then I realized I needed to quit doing drugs.

 

did you really quit doing drugs? how did that happen?

 

oh yay jelena's here

 

:H




yep... and you're online, too! yay!

 

i likes tha new pic.....

 

really?

i was too drunk to keep my eyes open this time... but don't tell that to anyone!

 

yea im thinking about stopping drugs too.. cause agree or not, they have a lot of negative effects on your brain lol... i really feel different now, not able to finish my sentences, losing track of reality anytime, forgetting things easily, and just not being focussing enough

 

I know the feeling. At least you didn't do coke and get really pissed off or think your tv was talking to you and that satan was possessing your teachers and your dad... and yourself. Accusing people of reading your mind, thinking clocks are lying to you, carrying a bible around to protect you, thinking people purposely set school clocks wrong to screw with your head, thinking that you were Jesus...

It can always get worse....

 

haha, now i look at it...



but yeh, its nice


but then again, i would doubt you could show me a pic of you that istn...

 

oh, stop it...



hm... do you really wanna see it?

 

thats bit closed minded

how the fuck do you know that good things will come to you if your good it doesnt happen inr eal life

 

thanks for the replies orsino i can relate to your comments