Fucking dozens of little seizures

Really make it hard to focus on anything.

 

Go lay down.

 

Take your pill and relax. Do you remember how you can anticipate them?

Well you need to rest your body somewhere so that you don't hurt yourself and listen to some soft music and let your thoughts take you adrift.

 

There is no need to focus. Let your body de-stress and listen to some positive music, a sweet voice whispering in your ear, and a relaxing thought can health your anxiety.

 

Might as well just masturbate and use the little jerks to your advantage.

 

Do you know why your getting them?

 

no, it's not going past little seizures, it's more irritating than anything else right now.

I'm having an athsma attack because my sister is an asshole and decided she had to vacuum today, even though she could have tomorrow, when I wasn't going to be home, which would have kept me miles away from the dust that is causing me such problems now.

the stress from the minor hypoxia is causing itty bitty seizures that no one but me actually notices without an EEG, or other brainwave monitoring tool.


and it's fucking frustrating to just have your brain do a soft reboot every few minutes, because keeping on a train of thought is just a pain in the ass

it's like someone dashing everything off your desk every couple of minutes, and having to reorganize everything, before you can move forwward, so I am stuck in prefabricated unites of thought, and schizoid loops

bullshit.

 

I'm epileptic and slightly hypoxic

and, BSR whose real name I do know, and wanted to use, but can't get to right now, because my brain is a fucking mess.

there are no actual jerks, it's all happening in my brain, I am shaking slightly more than usual, but that's not jerks per se.

 

Take care of yourself..I hope you feel better soon..
Do you have anyone that will give you a little extra attention??Ya now baby you a little..

 

You really need to lay down.

You're not afraid of logging off are you?

 

Please go lay down.

NOW Mr. David. Take at LEAST 15 minutes. Do something to collect yourself a bit and lay the fuck down.

 

Do you see how serious I am?

Now lay down.

 

this is REALLY very different from a big seizure, I can still work in prefabricated units, and I can still do a lot of stuff that I can't do after a grand mal, it's just that it is incredibly frustrating, and putting together a cogent explanation right now is made of fail

this was actually part of what made today with the family suck so much because I have to explain all kinds of idiotic things to them because dad IS retarded, my sister sucks at everything, and, well, mom was fine, but I had to explain a lot of stuff to nephew, which was less frustrating because he is supposed to require explanations, but he wasn't listening today, and family KNEW this was going on, and they were still having me do the explaining, at least LETTING me do the explaining, and that REALLY frustrated me even more


fuck shit damn, I just need some O2, some albuterol, and a contiguous weekend for gods sakes.

 

I really don't think he's as bad as you're making it out to be Aristartle... nigga seems to have his shit under control.

No jerks, no fun...

Oh well, hopefully you don't get early Alzheimer's or something.

Stay strong, and start writing down notes.

 

Well, come over for a few hours.

I'll fix you a nice organic meal and some juice.

Take a load off. Beat me at COD4. Or team up and do co-missions?

Seriously, you need some yoga or a fuzzy animal in your life. I know, stroke your hair and chin. Those are pleasantly fuzzy and comforting.

 

my cats are chilling with me, hairy is like, a biological EEG, he knows when shit is goin' down.

 

ummm... why are you still on the internet? Small/pre-dromes can escalate into gmals unless you take a headoff (like a benzo) and stop staring at something with pulses (like a monitor/TV) even if not the photo-epi type.

 

I'm not even remotely photic.

only 5% of epileptics are actually photic.

 

I still think staring at a computer monitor is going to worsen your stress levels and won't be as effective in the long wrong when you just have a seizure. Like the last one you had.

You freaked out and kept typing jiberish. But before that, you got yourself worked up and had a seizure right in front of your computer screen.

I'm just saying that you have to tear yourself away because it's going to help you if you're laying down already and a seizure comes on. Have some common sense and listen to your body.

Your mind needs a rest, then let it rest.

 

You got in b4 ninja edit.

Most things with with pulse/redraw don't help, even if non-photo was the trigger.