for fucks sake...

the ONE night that I actually go to bed at a decent hour, I wake up less than 2 hours later and cannot fall back asleep.


By decent hour, I mean before 3am. And tonite it happend to be even before 2am! (go me )


Why is sleep such a hard thing for me to master. I really am starting to think Im an insomniac. Every night I cant fall asleep til my dad is heading out for work! (6am) And this has been happening for like a year now.


I am really getting sick of this.....But my dad wont take me to get some sleeping pills from a doctor because he doesnt think its serious enough



errrr.....:$ im grumpy!

 

and none of you whores are even awake to talk to me.





motherfuckers.....

 

same here heather...last night i was up till 4 am. I wanna sleep so bad, but when i go to bed to and close my eyes, they just dont wanna stay shut...

i think, since im 18, i can actually buy sleeping pills...but i havent yet, thus why im still up, and probalby will be for another few hours

 

yeah, its not the fact that they dont wanna stay shut, its just that no matter how long i keep them shut for, i just cant fall asleep. there is like something wrong with that part of my brain or something hah, i lack the ability to fall asleep at nite.


but mayn, if i was old enough to go out n buy sleeping pills i so would. im sick of this shit. but yeah, i wanna go to the doc tho ahaha, they perscribe hardcore ones that definitly work. or maybe i could go get some lunesta...i've seen commercials for that before....bleh what am i saying, no i cant...im not 18..grr...i hate age.

 

it's pretty much same with me...
i don't like to sleep, i think it's a waste of time. 5 hours is top for me. i hardly ever fall asleep before the sunrise.
don't worry heather, it's probably nothing serious, but if you don't feel good, go to doctor or something like that... you're not insomniac if you're sleeping later.

 

I really suggest you go see a docter, this cannot be good for you


Luckily i'm one of those people who falls asleep more or less instantly

 

you smoke some good old fashion pot


well...for some people, it burns them out and helps them sleep, and used to for me, but for one reason or another, i tend to stay up even later if i get stoned. its like...the opposite of being burnt out...lit up...ya

 

haha...

pot always makes even more awake.

 

aha yeah, if i smoke enough, it sends me straight to sleep. but its a strange type of sleep. like, when i wake up, i dont really feel rested. I feel just as tired as before hah. its weird. but the actual sleeping part when i am asleep is awesome as is sleeping on any other drug.


but yeah, i think im going to force my father to take me to a doctor, damnit, cuz this shit is retarded. Can you become dependent on sleeping pills tho?

 

i remember watching that one lunesta commercial several times, and one of the side affects is "a slight chance of dependentcy", and other side affects like every drug...you could go to their website im sure to find more info.

 

hmmm yeah...i may as well do that since im awake

 

It's only midnight here. I'm probably gonna throw in a movie and lay down and watch it in a minute.

 

ahahah... stupid time difference...
it's 10 am here

 

its 2 am here


where do you live jelena?

 

right beside this tree.

belgrade, serbia, europe.

 

4am here.



and 9am where i wish i was.
actually no, its 4am where i wish i was as well.
that 9am place would just be nice to go visit for a lil while.



blah...im rambling now...

 

whoahhh. that is so awesome. i havnt even known anyone in serbia....

 

yay! now you do.

 

i dont think i have ever heard of serbia...neat



i would love to live in europe...or austrlia...well...just not idaho


but i believe i will be leaving sometime next year...it will be a good year

 

and you can come visit me whenever you want... like when you can't fall asleep.