To tell you alittle bit about myself I'm very introverted Person but opened up when I started going to Raves and poppin E. Then I got into whole rave culture and started really enjoy life and all the people in it. But then I started experiencing flackbacks and every negative human emotion there is, and I felt them all that night. They were shameful, embarrassing, humiliating, and uncontrollable experiences in life growing up that I had suppressed and never dealt with before. I becme paranoid with my environment and the people around me. When I looked at certain people or certain things in my environment that was associated with my past bad experiences, the flashbacks would come back. I had hard times concentrating because of the flashbacks. I noticed that I had a lack of motivation and an extreme fear of going outside and meeting people (friends or strangers). I felt like an insect in the land of giants and I couldn't survive for I was so insignificant.
I have them too. I do not understand them very much. Mine from PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). I C a Theraist and take Medication. They go away for some people. They are just part of my existance for now. I know I was living with some other people and when I found out I scream in my sleep. I live alone now so not sure if I still yell out in my sleep or not. If they still go on, I would see a Therapist or Doctor, early treatmet = possible better treatmemt results for some cases. Peace and take care...
So, I take it you do the drugs so you can become a more outgoing person and have fun? I'm not on drugs, nor have I done them >I prefer to keep it that way<, but I have stayed up late at night, laying in bed, feeling the way you do. It got to the point where I didnt even want to sleep anymore because I knew that laying in bed at night, not being able to sleep, would make me depressed. Eventually, I worked my way through this rough patch. I wasn't getting enough sleep, I was physically drained, I couldn't operate, etc. I trained myself not to think about it. >This was the only way I could overcome it.< I began falling asleep downstairs on the couch while watching Tv. I then just made myself become a more outgoing person. I got involved with life and friends and enjoyed it >without drugs< If i can do it, you can too, trust me. It takes lots of self-discipline though. You just have to mentally tell yourself "Dont think about it" >I would tell myself outloud most of the time because i'm weird like that ;þ< Personally, I would remove all thought from my head >this took a while< and painted a picture in my mind. Images, not thoughts, would run through my head, and I just concentrated on them...this eventually lead to the light dreaming process >where you are half-awake/half-asleep< which thus lead to a deep slumber. It might not work for you, but it did for me. It's worth a try I suppose. But nehoo, In conclusion, I would definently say, "lay off the drugs" and then work your way up from there. Good luck ;þ ______________________ Success is Never Final and Failure Never Fatal.
i have flash backs... both PTSD and drugs (LSD) but they go away! and cornflakes you sound pretty similar to me then there are alot of people here with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), Anxiety (can't leave the house, panic attacks, unexplainable fear) and paranoia so you are not alone! alot of people on these boards have been or still are going through the same thing! cornflakes im not suggesting you go back to E at all but do you think there was a reason why all your supressed memories surfaced? possibly a good reason? ArgScalawag suggested you block those thought (and im sure thats what he believes is best) but i think you are better off bringing them up so you can move past them, it sounds like they are still haunting you so you have face them and only then can you leave them behind. a therapist can be good for this just make sure it is one who you are comfortable with, it is very important you are comfortable with your therapist and can trust them.
I'm not hatin' on you Xac, i'm just curious. How can he possibly face the fears and memories of his past? What more can he do about them? They are over and done with. What is done is done. If you disagree, please explain this to me ;þ.
well iv'e taken alot of drugs and they tend to "block" out the memories and they surface again in negative ways, for example i smoked alot of "tobacco" to block out a particuly shitty child hood but this eventually led to a brake down. so when i stoped smoking all these negative emotions that i was use to blocking out by smoking started comming up and i couldn't stop them. in the end though it was for the best i would be upset almost suicidal but i got a chance to deal with them and now i am alot better.
Yes, everyday. I have some sort of flashback or what I consider a flashback or type of 'reminder' of the past everyday all day it seems. example-- there is an avatior that I seen a few minutes ago and it reminded me of a phychiatrist I had about 8 or 9 years ago. Had not thought of her in a long time. Simple things such as a phrase or make model of a vehicle can take me back to a time I had not or would have not thought of from the past. I already avoid almost all things outside my home, though I feel I will never escape ALL forms of things that 'take me back'. On good days I can re route my mind and bring it right away back to the here and now. Other days I seem to uncontrollablly go back and stay longer than later I realize or want to it would be easy and simple if I were in control of the flashbacks...only they control me sometimes...I don't do drugs though that are not prescribed to me any more which I think or know drugs had a major role in my dementia and mental problems today even though I stopped doing them long ago. the damage is done. Peace- sorry for the long YES answer to a question.
