wow really? I dont mind come downs at all. For me it's the coming up that gives me the anxiety. It's always a feeling of "oh shit what did I just get myself into". Sort of like you have lost control and there is no turning back. I'm rather introverted, so only a few close friends are able to tell when something is wrong, but anxiety really does have the potential to ruin a lot of great experiences for me, drug-related and otherwise. It sucks I hate it but oh well....
Yea Krishnaji was wonderful. Im still all about Awakening Intelligence, that's my favorite I've read so far, but Think On These Things is a classic as well. I'll have to give Network Of Thought a read, I have yet to come across that one
It's starting to sound like what i thought was smack based was mdma...interesting...definitely know what you mean by the differences in empathy...this is weird to think about haha
Try blowing 4-5 grams of potent cocaine and then having to try and sleep for 2 hours before you have to wake up and do something important, with no alcohol or sleeping pills. You will learn to loathe speedy come downs more than bad psychedelic trips Joshua :tongue: haha
no thank you. With 4-5 grams of good coke, I would work myself into an anxiety driven frezy and probably mentally stop my own heart.
Im the opposite haha, I dont get nervous and freaked out from cocaine until Im to deep into a bag to stop for the night. Though I highly doubt I will be touching any of those sorts of drugs again for a long while. Talk about losing your soul God Bless -
thats one of the main differences between these two particular upppers...one can help you find your soul, and the other, well if you don't lose it you drift further from knowing it...that may not make sense but yeah
Oh it makes complete sense. I was just referring to cocaine, MDMA has amphetamine effects but is entirely it's own world
I think I may quit drugs too. I feel like I dont need them anymore. They would still be fun, but I can barely even use them for that anymore due to my anxiety. I fail..
nah dude, that's a great place to be in...just when and if you quit, don't say I'm quitting forever...fuck that, leave the option of it open (its different if you're quitting meth/smack) but for these types of things its ok to return one day. If you don't need them anymore, cuz I know what you mean then good for you but if its only for anxiety you know wait till you are in a good place in your life...you will be, I'm sure of it
the bad thing about anxiety is that it has a nasty habit of perpetuating itself. that's what makes it so difficult. You get stuck in a cycle and it becomes very hard to break. There have been periods of life where I have been completely anxiety free (like the 4 months after my first acid trip , and more recently when I recognized my ego for what it was), but right now to imagine being anxiety free sometime in the future is pretty much unthinkable. That's why it's so bad.
but Neo, are you contemplating quitting more so because you're ready or because you can't handle it do to anxiety?
