Feeling a girl

I went through a phase - I'll call it - when I was a teenager. I did not feel like I presumed most of the other boys felt in those days. I didn't understand it. I cross-dressed back then. I pretended I was a girl when I was alone. I would get into my mother's closet, wear her wig, try on her things - and tried very hard to put everything back the way I found it - of course, I was not very good at that, and my mother confronted me about it - and simply told me to stay out of her things. I continued for awhile and tried even harder to put things back as I found them.
I never felt I fit in as a boy or even as an equal among male peers. When we are different, we know it.
For me, though - I outgrew it. I feel like a man. I don't know if I act like a man - whatever that is. I recognize my feminine characteristics and the things I enjoy seem to float more feminine than what men enjoy doing. No sports, for example. I'd rather re-arrange furniture. (haha) But, I've lost the desire to actually dress like or be a female. I think I was more confused about sexual orientation than gender orientation. And my sexual orientation is more aligned with female wired brain function than male. And that influences other things far beyond sex.
I am not sure what you are experiencing has anything to do with actually wanting to be a girl, but it might be a sexual thing, and there is not a thing wrong about that.