I have been crossdressing off and on since age 5,and I am currently in private. when I was 46 I moved into an apartment complex and was out of contact with family and friends. During that time I wore womens clothes and lived as a woman 24/7,for more than a year. it was a huge risk for me to take, but it was something that I wanted very much. I made friends in the complex most of whom were women,and would occasionaly coffee clutch together and do our hair,nails and makeup - I loved it but was afraid to to leave the building dressed as a woman,and always dressed as a man to shop,etc. Toward the end of that year,(the last 3 months),I enrolled in the U of M sex reasignment program for counciling. this was the only period that I dressed as a woman out side of the complex. I finally started to feel like my time and luck up was running out after being contacted by a family member. out of fear,I quit therapy,moved out and on to manhood again. I regreted it then and still do as that was 17 years ago. Today I once again have my own place,this time in Mexico away from family and friends,and I still dress only in the privacy of home,but still afraid of being discovered... I'm hoping that this forum will at least be a connection for me to interact with others like me in and hopefully become a support system as well - This is the first time since being in therapy that i've spoken a word about who i am....
