Extensive Trip Report ... first timer

This is my first post on this website. I thought I would post my trip report for everyone to see. I remember before I tried this stuff, I wanted to read ALL the reports on the internet. So now, I thought that I'd contribute.

Alright. I smoked around four different times yesterday, and one time this morning. It was 10x material. All the times I did it I had my eyes in a pillow as to not let myself open them.

First time = First couple hits I didn't feel anything... not a lot of smoke was getting released. Then after a huge third one... oooooooooooo man.

/start trip Ok... I definitely felt myself being pulled away from my physical body. I actually saw it happen. I saw a boat far away from me... getting closer. As it got closer, I started to sense a bubble type object starting to envelop me. It started from my toes and went up and out through my head. It didn't come fast. It came reeeeeaaaally slow. I could feel it "rolling" over me. As if someone had a roller type massager type thing and slowly rolled it up my body. As the boat passed me... I floated onto it and we began to drift away. There were a LOT of other people on the boat. One person I could distinctly feel as a leader on the boat.

The next couple things I saw were very vague and confusing. Hard to remember exactly what was happening.

I remember being REALLY high up in the air. I looked down and saw a geometric patter of what looked to be a small square with some light designs on it. I started to "free-fall" towards it. As I got closer, it started to get big... really big. I started to distinguish that it was actually people standing around at a HUGE ceremony. (it reminded me of the very end of Star Wars ep. 1). I started to float down, I thought I would end up being dropped off next to some people in like a crowd. But I kept flying... I kind of made a big circle around the whole area and started to get closer. I ended up right in the center... with everyone looking at me. And I didn't know what to do.

There was one point during this trip that I remember someone was giving me a speech on how to think. It sounded like an old lady... she was like shouting at me. I was actually hearing her... I remember thinking "how do I respond to her?" Then at that point,... I came out of it... I realized I was just sitting there and no one was talking. /end trip

2nd/3rd/4th times = All of these times were taken with only one hit... except one of them. It was two big ones in succession. I do not remember all of these times distinctly. They all feel like one time. At the same time.

/start trip Lightheadedness started to overtake me. I tried to find a good spot to sit but I couldn't find one... so I just sat still while uncomfortable. The rolling feeling of my "self" exiting through the top of my body happened again.

At one point, I felt the back of my shirt starting to "lift" up. Like someone was behind me lifting up my shirt. This made me VERY uncomfortable. My shirt started coming up a little bit... then a little bit more. It came all the way up and almost all of my back was showing. At that point I was like wtf who's touching me. I reached behind me and my shirt was completely covering my back. My shirt hadn't moved at all. I figured, "ok, cool" then I covered up my eyes again. /end trip

I REALLY want to know if anyone has "felt" people while on salvia. Because this next one really freaked me out. /start trip I was sitting in the corner of the room with the pillow over my eyes. I "felt" someone start to crawl up my body. Grabbing onto my foot... pulling themselves up. They moved really slowly. They pulled themselves up eventually to where their belly reached my belly and I could tell someone was looking at me from the other side of the pillow. Just staring at me. Expecting me to do something. I had goosebumps all over my body at this point. I could TELL someone was right there. ... Just the feeling of someone being on top of you and not knowing who it is is really scary. I couldn't stand it anymore. I started to move the pillow slowly. I only got one of my eyes out of the pillow's view by the time I saw a person there. The second my eye was able to see anything I saw another eye, and it blinked. I covered up my eyes in my pillow again. Then took the pillow off one second later... and no one was there. /end trip

This morning... I only smoked one more time. It was different this time though. I was not able to "let go" of my body this time around. It feels like it requires too much energy for this to be done. The first time I felt it it was the greatest experience. All of the times exiting my body exhausted me. Anyway the final time... I started to feel the rolling sensation, but it wouldn't go all the way through. It started at my feet then came up to my thighs. I felt like I didn't want it anymore. Everything in the world didn't want me to go back to where I had been before. I came out of it right away. One analogy comes to mind when I think of this feeling.

It feels as if... you had spent 200 hours on a game. Any game. You played it for 200 hours straight and you played it with all your heart. In one second, ...your file gets deleted. And the drug is MAKING you play the game over again. You sure as hell DON'T want to go through that again but it's that feeling right there. I just couldn't let myself play that game again.


If these thoughts seem unorganized at all, don't worry. They were. That is how my trips were experienced and I had already noticed some memories of them coming and going. I'm forgetting things about them and remembering things about them at the same time. It's too much to write/type down. The only thing really scary about the trips is that you can't really tell when they end. You can feel them start, but they seem to have no end. And when you reach the end, you might not feel it. You just... realize it later.

 

the healing is happenning
good thing you studied.

I guess the pillow is because you wanted to favour visuals, pillow is also a kind of comfort device - smart.

since it was recent you can now feel afterglow which is part of the healing.

in native circles this is medicine - what happens when you are medicined up is significant briefly -> contextual realizations and contextual confrontations are part of the healing but might not mean anything outside of the healing circle.

relaxing is important, and what you learn about that is useful in regular life.

 

yea I initially used the pillow as a "eye cover" so I wouldn't get sucked back into the real world by opening my eyes but it was used as a crutch.

I didn't type it,... but also... when I woke up that morning... I felt GREAT. It was almost like waking up after taking some tweek. But then I smoked and got kicked out of the other realm =(.