Well, I went through one of the craziest parts of my life with this girl, and they were good memories the ones I had of me and her, but keep in mind this was all when I was still schitzo last year from my bad mushroom trip. I talked to her a few times since last year, don't ever really make a big deal about it, I just catch up every now and then, she called me a couple times to catch up. Now she still talks to my friends, but she won't talk to me. All I want is to keep GOOD TERMS with the people I knew or know. She says "all I want to be is a memory to you. How fucked is that? I deleted her from my contacts and told her I did that, and to have a nice life. All I was doing is try too keep it real and wanted to remain friends. She is just a complete bitch to me. I am just clueless, I was always a good person she told me when we were dating, and that I would "always have a place in her heart" Guess shes just dirty as fuck liar. God these people make me sick, I do whatever I can to be nice and have as many friends and connects as I can, and this chick just won't talk to me but talks to my friends that I introduced her to still. I JUST DON'T get it. Its just so strange to me after all the nice things and good times I had with her, I am nobody to her now. Its pretty much just my ego that is like "why?" Some people are just fucked I guess. The funny part is, after venting in this thread I feel fine about it now, because I am gonna be one hell of a good connect when Im older, and Im gonna be rich as fuck and way cool. So shes gonna be sorry. I can't wait lol.
Yeah... You are right actually, she always had this thing for one of em. That wouldn't even really matter to me now though, thats not even the point of this.
I have two friends online. I met online friend 2 when he was dating online friend 1. He was a rebound relationship really; she can't stand sight of his name. He never did anything to wrong her, he was just lazy; a poor choice for her. She is ashamed that she ever dated him and can't stand the slightest reference to him; it has nothing to do with him, but she hates him for what she did. She is taking her personal issues out of her life and pushing them onto your relationship. Let it go; pity her, even.
Yeah, from what you described duck, that sounds like what happened. She pretty much considered me as a "bad boyfriend" the truth is she was only like my 3rd gf so I was just inexperienced with romance and shit. And uhh yeah laziness she fuckin hated that about me lol. Edit: just reread what you wrote in that first part of your post... Wtf? seriously both people you met ONLINE actually went out with each other? and you didn't meet them through each other?? thats fuckin crazzy coincidence yo unbelievable.
I have a few exes I don't talk to at all. I really don't care about it, either. If you are meant to be in each other's lives at all, it will happen. Give it time...maybe even years...and try being civil again
I hope this tune makes you feel better: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBhA1WeHors"]YouTube - Social Distortion - A Place in My Heart Stay Brown, Rev J
Here's another one from way back that popped in my head. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qlh7lFZV0pE"]YouTube - Belly OST-movin out
This is one thing that actually pains me about my relationships as well. Sometimes I wish I could put all the people I've been involved with in a room, and talk to them and kiss them. It feels like a tremendous loss that I talk to almost none of them anymore. And yet, for the most part it was my decision to do so. And the reason for it, I would attribute to nothing other than possessiveness, necessary though it seems to be. Some of my exes have partners who would be uncomfortable in my presence and vice-versa, or couldn't accept the fact that I had wanted other partners, and that about sums up the reason why my past is not mine. I am guilty of the clean break and pay my dues for it in nostalgic currency.
