Everyday, I am getting fatter and fatter

I eat too much not because I am hungry but because I am bored.

There is nothing in this meaningless life except for eating food and drinking drinks.

 

Get dancing. Play the music and get dancing.

 

I lost a lot when I was sick for just over a month last year. I can't gain weight no matter how hard I try. I keep losing more and more.

 

it's really good that you recognize that you're doing that because you're bored. I do the same thing. I tend to eat when there's nothing to do, for example on the weekends.

I actually lost weight though since yesterday. I gained weight on Friday, and then jogged four times a day on Saturday and Sunday. Today I weighed 175 lb. which is 79.37 kg.

I need to lose another 10 lb though. At least...

 

How about thinking and perhaps doing SOMETHING for those less fortunate than yourself ,instead of whining about how miserable life is for you. The mere fact that you have been GIVEN life is a miracle of some kind---so begin to use it wisely instead of wasting it. People are starving, children are being killed and / or mistreated, animals are disappearing from existence, wars are being fought------can you not find something outside of yourself to focus on??

 

There is no miracle in having been born. Everybody gets born and dies.

And I am not living in Africa. People in this country have a stomach full enough to do street fightings. Otherwise they would not have the energy to do street fightings, would they?

 

No. I never read any book.

 

It's no big deal we all put on a few pounds over the winter months with the snow and cold outside.

Especially this year with all of the COVID-19 restrictions in place including quarantines, stay at home orders, and nightly curfews.

When the weather starts getting warmer in a few months, you'll lose it all, and will soon return to your old self.

 

Since I last overdosed on antidepressants, I've felt exhausted just about every day. I wake up from bed like I am sleepy and it goes on all the day.

Today it was over 23 degrees here so we don't have winter but a t-shirt weather. It is more like summer here.

I was able to sleep for 4 to 5 hours till some time ago. Then I was up all day. Today I slept long enough but still feel exhausted.

I want some medicine which would make me sleep 23 hours a day. Other 1 hour is for eating food and drinking water. I don't want to be up for more than a hour.

I want something like Xanax.

 

how about dreaming new dreams? exploring new places? creating new expressions of you personal aesthetic?
creating and exploring are not spectator sports, or at least they don't have to be.
no one has to be great at anything to have fun with it. and you only get great at anything by doing it a lot.
if you expect to be a spectator and the universe to entertain you, well it doesn't owe any of us that.
even if you're locked in a tiny room, the imagination can go anywhere. even places that only exist in it.

"meaning" is over rated. try actually looking beyond what you've been told to expect to see.
there is nothing "evil" about the wonderful strangeness of reality that owes nothing to familiar beliefs and assumptions. ruts are of the making of our own self blindness.

 

getting fat sucks

I remember when I was drinking beer every night I gained lots of weight. I was over 200 lbs (90.7 kg) by a significant margin; I think I was 220 or more at one point.

When I stopped drinking I lost 10 pounds right away. Then, over the course of 5+ years I lost about 20 more pounds. Finally, since 2020 began I dropped from 200+ to my current weight; which this morning was 176 lbs (79.83 kg). It may not sound like much, but 24 lbs is significant for me and I feel a little better; though this morning my equilibrium is doing something weird...

My plan is to lose at least another 10 lbs. Once I am happier with my body image, I will reassess whether or not to lose more weight. I'd like to lose the bedratted love-handles...

 

Weight turned my face into the face of a pig. Lol.

I look very smilar to a pig with a short hair and no beard at this weight. Lol.

When you have a bmi below 25, short hair and no beard looks very good but when you are fat, not really. It is a big no. Longer hair and beard covers your fatness of your face when you are fat. Otherwise your face looks just like the face of a pig

Especially when the hair is cut short, that is terrible.... All the fatness of your face appears. And that face is the face of a pig.

 

I had surgery to repair double inguinal hernias at the end of Nov ( almost died but thats another story) so for a month I did nothing but eat and sleep I was on a limited activity and ZERO lifting restriction , I am now very fat and out of shape trying to climb back out of it by getting back to walking EVERYDAY I used to walk 2-4 miles everyday weather permitting now I can barely make a mile but Im trying

 

Our daughter loves pigs, so who knows, you may even find a girlfriend.