ego loss/realizations

best stories of total ego loss? best realizations during a session?

 

Holy shit the center of me, is the center of everything in the universe, and other universes, and beyond!

 

"Maybe my definitive and scientific view of the universe doesn't quite contain all the answers!"

 

Things are not as they seem. No wait, actually yes they are.

 

It is so.

 

Wait.... Wutt? Where am I? Oh... Wait.... Wutt?!?

 

wtf is wrong with this world everthing keeps happening where am i omg im home

 

WE are eternal.

 

lol

 

some shitty responses

 

Certainly this one.

 

post some experiences, i wish i could

 

well one time when i was at bonnaroo i ate two hits of family acid and after all the music ended at around 6-7 am i had to go back to my campsite b/c there was nothing else to do. as i was walking back everything started switching places and the ground started melting away and swirling up into helix-type pillars. everything was just collapsing inwards. then when i got back to my campsite it was like being on an island in the middle of a cascading landmass. eventually i just relaxed and let it overtake mycampsite too at which point i became a singular point of consciousness free from the illusion.

i wrote a trip report about it, the thread was called - All the way down (trip report)

 

Downtown, the lights are much brighter there, you can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go downtown.

 

Where is your better response?

 

I think most people prefer not to ramble on and on about experiences that they feel are indescribable.

 

i'll relate this experience in a stream of consciousness type manner. it will be somewhat lengthy and i simply can't describe certain things do to the limits of language.

begin:
psychedelic binder...been up two days now...took some dank dank acid yesterday, haven't been to sleep. convergent kaleidoscopes still remain, concepts awash 20 hours after initial dose, it's sometime in the morning. reminder; embrace life. meet up with some friends, smoke some amanita and dmt mixed, spun spun spun. damn, never been this far...but i don't know how far i am, the scope of all realities collapsed into oblivion yesterday...it was that nuclear bomb dose (ten strip, plus unknown amount absorbed through intentional puddling by prankster friends). was i getting back to concepts and forms? no longer, amanitas and dmt have made sure of it. summertime, evening comes around, haven't ate anything, drank too little, thought about the day and the day before. this day, many variants of smoke to simmer on, first experience of telepathy, still trying to piece together a coherent reality-map from the systemic disassembly of concepts experienced the day before...smoke some hash and some opium, dose again. this time, many minis, cubensis that is. potent little fuckers...oh shit, more dank dank to come.

nightfall, now i remember where i am at...b-roo...shows...shows...oh that's right...i'm supposed to go watch Tool. no concepts, no reality maps, telepathy and time-bending to boot...off i go to see a band guaranteed to rape my ego without the assistance of compounds, now WITH compounds...let's see how this goes! boomers kicking in...i already know, these are dank dank too... TOOL time, this could be huge, i know. reflecting again, this is gonna be HUGE. band starts to play and i soon realize, this is gonna be MASSIVE, and this MASSIVE thing, is occuring within me and there is nothing i can do stop it, i have to embrace it and LET GO, otherwise i'll explode, literally. i hit the deck, "Jambi" plays on... i can't stay here any longer, there's no way now man, you're GONE. i am GONE. bye bye body, nice to know you...

out-of-body state...this is a first. this is beyond rational/logical mind loss, this is beyond ego loss, this is body loss, this is the loss of all attachments to the physical, to maya. that exploding feeling, it had some weight...my infinite selves have been blasted apart into infinite mirrored fractures of themselves, literally...i could see it happen, in what i can only a describe as a true visionary state...like a vivid reel of film being played through in the eye of my consciousness; a consciousness completely unaware of and unaffected by the physical. visionary scenes of beautiful, vast astral landscapes, godhead architecture, different points in time- past and future, circling back around, revisiting the Clear Light of godhead...then divergent again, through various stages of Bardo, communion of souls, some part of my soul group, people that i knew in my 'physical life', sometimes completely new entities/souls, perhaps non-incarnate. fortunately, playful and benevolent.

meanwhile, my physical vessel is remarkably still 'there', even though i don't know it...yet. i still have to return to Clear Light again before i can break back through into the 3rd dimension space/time. what has happened to my physical vessel during this time is quite remarkable though, and the sensations of which are quite palpable to me once i 'come to'. a transformation has occurred, the life-force energy of kundalini has been awakened within me, the serpent has risen from its dormant coil at my base chakra, and has actively been devouring all the karmic junk in each of my chakric channels, no doubt triggering many of the different out-of-body visionary scenes i was experiencing, each set of visions related to the particular chakra being cleansed. it was only after months of steady integration thereafter, and sufficient research, that i was able to ascribe what i had experienced, as being the exact experience of kundalini awakening.

back to Clear Light, energy body renewed, i'm born again into the physical, completely transformed and very disoriented. i'm escorted away from the venue by staff and come to in a medic tent...everything is illuminated.

p.s. people having trouble grasping some of this should definitely research kundalini and other Vedic teachings, and most definitely should check out T. Leary's 'The Psychedelic Experience'.

phew, that was mouthful! you asked for it though. pz.

 

you got to see tool when you were tripping

so lucky i would kill to watch them play jambi

 

yeah... except i was beyond tripping bro... so i 'physically' missed most of the set, but subconsciously i heard the music and their set was partially responsible for moving me into the different out-of-body realms, no doubt.

 

OMG dude!!!!! I had almost the exact same experience at Tool at Bonnaroo in 07. Took a hefty dose of Lucy a short time before the show. Im not exactly sure what happened or how to explain what happened but I can tell you I definetely did have an out of body experience and seemed to travel to some kind of strange moments in space/time. I was also dragged away by security, I have no idea what I did, I awoke in the medical tent with an I.V. in my arm, I guess they were pumping me with Thorazine maybe? IDK, but later they told me that I could go, but I then realized my wristband was gone (so were my socks, shoes, and wallet) so the guy on the golf cart wouldnt give me a ride back to my campsite. So I end up walking from about 4 am til about 11 am in a triping stupor, whatever they gave me made me feel like a fucking zombie or something cuz I was totally out of it. I was so gone I kept walking around in huge circles, I kept ending up where I started but finally I composed myself enough to be able to ask somebody for directions and I was pointed in the right direction. I finally made it to my tent after about 7 hours of wandering around aimlessly and went to sleep as soon as I got there.

When I awoke I thought it was all a dream until I looked at my arm and saw the bandage where they had the I.V in me. There were so many crazy and strange things that happened that night that I cant put into words and some of it is very personal info that I dont feel comfortable sharing at this point in time. One thing that I will mention from that night is that I was shown how every action, thought, and intention has an effect on something. Tool definetely chewed me up and spit me out, I have no doubt that Tool was a contributing factor in how my trip went. The music really did seem to take me places. That was the most terrifying and beautiful experience I have ever had and it totally changed me. Spiral out and keep going

Thats pretty crazy how similar my night was to yours.I wonder how many people Maynard and Danny mindfucked that night?