Hello all. I had a beautiful pregnancy and a beautiful birth. I used Hypnobirthing and a midwife in a tub to have the most peaceful birth I could have imagined for my baby. It was wonderful. After giving birth and removing the placenta I was exhausted. Because I was so exhausted I blindly took a tramadol without thinking. Up until then I was drug free. . The tramadol made me loose touch with reAity and it made me so tired. We did skin to skin for about an hour but I was so out of it I fell asleep. My husband and step daughter held our baby for about the next 6 hours until the meds wore off. It wasn't until then I feel like I finally bonded with my baby. We are so close and so in sync now. We co sleep and EBF. I still can't help but feel guilty that I went through so much effort to bring her a peaceful birth and then I didn't bond with her until later. I feel really guilty and worry this may effect her.