dreamweave was right

im a horrible, horrible, BAD person...

i tell myself not to do things and i keep doing them over and over again. its like im insane. i dont do anything right.... i act like a fucking whore when i get drunk, i cant stop drinking, i dont WANNA stop drinking, ive been missing class again, i just make everyone that knows me upset.

im just a burden on everyone. all i do is bring people down.

ive been dead in my soul for years... my body is just hanging on and IM FUCKING TIRED of all the BULLSHI!!

i WANT to do the right things... i just cant. i cant do anything right and yes, im being WHINEY... i dont fuckign care.

 

Don't even try to do things right.

 

Well, we all have to start somewhere.

What do you think it will take for you to start caring about yourself? Others care for you. We don't like to see (or in this case hear) you going through all this. It isn't even necessary.

Why don't you want to stop drinking? When you know you do these things while drinking why don't you want to give that up?

I know how tormenting an addiction can be. It won't always torment you. Not if you remove yourself from it and start caring about you. Even if you can just remove yourself from it others will be caring for you and teach you how you can care for you.

You don't have to do this alone.

 

Trish, dreamweaver is an asshole. You're going through this awful cycle, and we're here to help you in away way possible break it- first, we have to figure out what's wrong. Alcohol, alcohol, it's alcohol's fault, not yours. You've got to get it out of your life, I know detox can help- it's helped everyone I know that's been in your situation, now I never find hospital bills from my underage brother for getting too drunk and having his stomach pumped, my aunt doesn't hide wine under her bed anymore, and my sister leaves the shotglasses up on the shelf. Just realize that it's not you that's making you act this way, it's the alcohol

 

Why would you suggest that? What other options are there? Sit and wallow in misery? She's slowly killing herself on a daily basis, sometimes on an hourly basis.

Trish, I know deep down inside you know what the right thing to do here is. Start with one situation at a time.

 

Good things just happen. I stopped drinkin just like today i will tomorrow i will not. Same way i did with all the other vices in my life. If she rushes into quiting alcohol, she will also rush into another problem...

 

I don't think she is rushing but I hear what your saying. That is why she should go to a detox so they can help her cope with all the challenges withdrawing can bring one. She shouldn't do it alone but it doesn't sound to me like she can do it on her own. With the amount she drinks in a day she could do more damage quitting by herself.

Good things do just happen however in my own experience they don't just happen while doing this kind of thing. One must make an effort too and NOT give up. It doesn't happen in a day, week, month, It's a process. This is life.

I wish you well with this too Axis. Are you getting any help at all?

 

Actually i just quited because i'm using some supplements(creatine, dextrose, L-carnitine, amino acids) that doesn't get along with alcohol. But it was problem too. I used to drink at least 3 litres of beer a day. That's not much but if you stop...

 

Trish, you fucked up. So what? No one is perfect, and EVERYONE is a fuck up from time to time. It's in the past, can you do anything to change it now? No, of course not. Stop feeling sorry for yourself about shit you can't change. You have to realise that you have the power to decide what you're actions are. No one else.
You want to get drunk? Trish makes that decision.
You want to sleep with another man? Trish makes that decision.
You gotta step up to the plate Trish, and you gotta start making the right decisions rather then just being a repeat of your past. You CAN do it, it's just a matter of how badly you want it.

 

Yeah Trish, we are here to support you... But decision is only yours...

 

Trish everyone makes mistakes. But is all seriousness I would go to your local ymca they have family counselors there. You can go alnoe at first and than bring your hubbie since you want to work things out with him.

 

interval.......you are an issue junkie

there I said it

you have issues and when you solve them you go get more

if that's how you wanna live your life, cool with me

you're a grown woman

 

YOU have to want to get better, or to get help in order to get it Trish, i don't know how many of these thread i have seen now, but we could give you the best advice in the world, but it would be totally pointless if you keep ignoring us and yourself like this.

 

AWW little baby is begging for attention again...boo hoo! maybe if I talk about how shitty I am then people will pitty me and give me reps and pat my wittle doggy head Get over yourself please! everyone knows what you're all bout. It pathetic!


to who ever sent me that.... in my rep... thank you. i needed that. so sweet of you.... hahaha.

 

shit, I thought you were writing that shit about yourself for a sec there....I was wondering what the hell you were doing that for.

 

why do you take anything dreamweaver says to heart, he's an admitted coke fiend who will likely die because of it, he has no high ground here....

I believe you have tried detox, are you in the middle of a bender now...do you get drunk everyday?

 

Yes......

 

are you doing anything about it?

 

how about letting it wear off, getting some sleep, not drinking tomorrow, not drinking the next day...see if you can make it a week? I view it as shooting heroin, you need to make it through the withdrawal, then perhaps there will be a "moment of clarity."


A firend of mine was a bad alcoholic (is), got his second DUI, hadto quit, and did...it can be done.

 

i just raped you...err, repped