Dreaming About Girls And Having A Man

Discussion in 'Bisexual' started by skye*, May 14, 2004.

  1. skye*

    skye* Member

    MY MAN ONLY THINKS SEX IS SEX, HE CANT MAKE OUT-LEADS TO SEX IF WE DO, ISNT AFFECTIONATE. wE HAVE TALKED ABOUT THIS MANY TIMES AND HES TRYING TO WORK ON IT. MY PROBLEM IS IM OPPOSITE, IVE BEEN WITH GIRLS MY WHOLE LIFE UP UNTIL ABOUT 6 YRS AGO.
    I WAS WITH MY XG FOR 6 YRS AND SHE WAS THE MOST ABUSIVE PERSON ID EVER BEEN WITH NOT TO MENTION SHE CHEATED ON ME MORE TIMES THAN I COULD COUNT, EVEN IN MY OWN HOUSE. EVENTUALLY I WAS SO SICK OF HER SHIT THAT I LET HER BE WITH THE GIRL SHE WAS CHEATING ON ME WITH.

    FROM 15 TO 21 SHE WAS MY LIFE, I DIDNT KNOW WHAT A MALE RELATIONSHIP WAS EVEN LIKE, I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A GUY NOR DID I FIND MOST ATTRACTIVE. UNTIL I MET MY BEST FRIEND AND STARTED FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM, OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS SO STRONG HOWEVER WE NEVER WENT ANY FURTHER THAN HOLDING EACHOTHER. HE OPENED MY EYES TO BEING WITH GUYS AND TAUGHT ME ALL MEN WERENT BAD.

    AFTER MY BEST FRIEND MOVED HE TOLD ME TO FOLOW MY HEART NO MATTER THE SEX AND NOT TO JUDGE ALL GUYS AS BEING ASSHOLES.
    I STARTED DATING GUYS AND FOUND IT ALMOST EXCITING, SINCE I DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SEX OR ORAL SEX IT WAS LIKE BEING A KID ALL OVER AGAIN. HOWEVER I DID STILL DATE GIRLS AND DEF THINK THE RELAT BETWEEN A GIRL WAS MUCH MORE STRONGER THAN WITH A GUY. GIRLS ARE DEF MORE AFFECTIONATE, MORE GENTLE, LOVING, AND ALMOST LIKE I KNEW WHAT THEY WERE FELLING ALL THE TIME AND VISE VERSA. TO ME ITS UNCOMPARABLE, THATS WERE MY DILEMA FALLS.

    MY HUBBY IS VERY LOVING AND GENTLE AND KIND, WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON ME OR TREAT ME BAD. THE HARD THING FOR ME IS THAT I STILL DREAM ABOUT GIRLS ALOT. HE KNOWS MY PAST AND DOSENT MIND THAT I LOOK AT OTHER GIRLS WHEN WERE OUT. HE THINKS ITS CUTE AND WOULD NEVER GET MAD ABOUT IT. I STILL WONDER IF I DID THE RIGHT THING, SINCE THE CONNECTION BETWEEN A GUY AND A GIRL IS TOALLY OPPOSITE THAN WHAT IM USED TO. HE IS WILLING TO LET ME HAVE A GIRL IF I WANT ONE BUT I FEAR SINCE I LOVE SEX WITH GIRLS WAY MORE AND SINCE I ADORE GIRLS ILL FALL IN LOVE WITH THE GIRL/AND OUT OF LOVE WITH HIM. IF GIVEN THE CHANCE, A HUGE TEST IN MY EYES WICH I THINK ID FAIL WITH FLYING COLORS. HE IS WONDERFUL AND I DONT WANT TO TAKE THE RISK OF LOOSING HIM, HOWEVER I CANT GET GIRLS OUT OF MY HEAD.

    YA IM DEF STUCK AND DONT KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD SHUT IT OUT, OR LET IT OUT. AND DONT WANT TO RISK LOOSING HIM. ITS NOT FAIR TO HIM, IN MY EYES.

    ANYONE ELSE BEEN IN MY SHOES OR CAN RELATE ?
    ADVICE WOULD BE GREAT!:)
    SORRY SO LONG......
     
  2. Nistix

    Nistix Member

    I kind of understand what you are talking about... Although to start off with I am a man so am unable to fully understand. All I will say to you is the fantasy is not the same as the reality. However much you may want something in your mind it is never the same when you get it.
    If you sleep with a awoman it probably will change your relationship with your husbend. You may lose him. The only one to make the decidion is you though. You know this already. Just be careful!
    I hope everything works out ok. for you...
     
  3. jungee

    jungee Member

    wow i dont know to say, this was a reviting story. i think you're a great and very honest person to care about the people you love in this manner. good luck hun
     
  4. Hey Skye,

    I just took a look at one of your threads, because on the Calendar, I saw we have the same birthday & you were born the year I graduated from H.S.
     
  5. skye*

    skye* Member

    you all had some great advice and i really appreciate it:)


    THANKS FOR THE LUCK AND HELPING THROUGH THIS AWKWARD TIME:)

    MERRY BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL!
     

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