I'm just not shakin' this depression and I have all these horrible thoughts going on in my head. I'm lonely, hurt, frustrated, impatient, and tired.
Lol. I like my glitter. I dunno. I'm coping, I think it's because my doctor increased my anti-depressant and it gets worse before better kinda thing.
Try and quiet the mind, its tricky but so usefull, dont get in a tizz about medation etc, etc theres so much shit out there it actually really pisses me off lol, i'm always trying too blame my feelings on stuff outside my control, it's disgusting... ie, i need help, im not well, no one understands etc etc, its all shit, you and only you can sort this from the roots up, i've been going through the same thing, then BAM !!!!..... only the other day it made sense......shut the fuck up !!! a statement made to mysef, so profound and obvious it's crystal clear. shut the fuck up, thoughts come and go but just listen too them, dont argue or entertain them, it's ejoyable to practise and empowering once you realise you do actually control your thoughts, the world will look quite differant when you learn to just watch and listen. edit - hey sorry if i sounded harsh there, much love I think i was just projecting a wee bit anger that has been cultivated in me lately, i'm going through a massive inner change just now, lifes a wonderfull oportunity for us all, strive to be posiitive on the cusp of change, when u see things clearly, like for the first time you walk in a room after a heavy nights party, u see the mess shits in, this is a metaphor for where i'm at lol but it's a new day and the sun is shining :sunny: Have a wee read at this
I would like to recommend a series of books by Julia Cameron. The first of these is The Artists Way. It is absolutely brilliant and as you were a dancer it is perfect for you. You might also like to have a look at some basic CBT exercises in conjunction with this, you can get these here http://www.get.gg/freedownloads.htm sending you a cyber hug and love and light, flower!
