I love marijuana but then again I hate it. It kills my motivation and makes me feel low about my self. When I get stoned A part of my head is all funny but then the other part picks on the stupid part and makes me feel like a loser. Pot is just soo boring now and as i come to think of it, it's stupid. It makes me feel insecure and quiet when I'm stoned with people I don't really know and it makes me really quiet and strange-when I'm not even on it- around people I donm't really know. I hate it but then I love it. I can never pass up a bowl. Why can't I stop smoking pot?
there is most likely still some part of your body that still loves the feeling that pot gives. Could also just be a habit you have picked up, and since your always around pot (if you are, i dont really know...), then its just natural take not pass up a bowl.
Sounds like addiction, classic case, the love-hate relationship. Maybe you need to just step back a while, ya know?
What do you get out of it if you cannot pass up a bowl? Try to figure out why you feel the way you do. If you figure out where your insecurity is coming from, when you are around people you don't know well it might help you figure out what you can do to change things. If you are bored and smoking, are you constantly doing the same old thing day in day out? If whenever you smoke you always find yourself doing something like watching tv, go out side and take a walk. What do you enjoy doing sober, (I don't know what you like and don't like to do,) try to mix up what you do while you are stoned so it is not constantly the same old thing. Also if you feel like you are not getting anything out of smoking anymore, take a break for some time. You can always go back to smoking again if you feel like it. An important part about life is to enjoy living it, and to enjoy what you do. If you find yourself no longer enjoying what you do, you should do something about it to make things better. You have a choice about whether you smoke or you don't. If you no longer enjoy doing it, then don't do it. You are still young and have time to figure things out. Good luck in what you do.
Go on a week break with me. Grass motivates me some, I dont really like the fact I have to sneak around to do it but oh well. Day 3!!! of the break.
day one of my break will be over soon. Everytime I smoke I'm doing something different. Sometimes I go for walks, sometimes i swim, whatch tv, listen to music***, drive around in cars, eat, chill, etc. I still smoke but only gte high for like 5 minutes and then it gets old and im sick of it and tired.
I used to be the same way because whenever I smoked, I would try to convince myself that I wasn't high. Fuck that. Enjoy every minute of it, and try to relax. You'll learn to love it.
I've been having the same epiphany lately as well... try quitting for a few days to get everything in perspective, you will enjoy it, trust me. When I stopped for a little bit, I didn't even want to smoke, and I had a quarter in my drawer at home. It's all about will power, and how far you want to go with it, really. I do know what you mean though by being all burned out and tired after though, I hate feeling like that, especially after a few sessions in a day.
yah I think a break is in order here. my breaks last any where from 3 days to 6 months. But is sound like your just wasting reefer right now, and thats never good. it's up tp you how long a break you need. Shorter periods are for physical detox, longer for a complete clearing of the head.
well, i love weed lol but as said of course, it doesnt matter that the addiction is in the head, or that it can be overcome with minimal will power, the fact is that its there and the very fact that it is there means that the user just wont stop, even though they can.
