I have been using since I was 12 have been pretty sexully active since then well willingly with girls that is. I have dealt with abuse since I was 1. Anyway I don't really have a conscious or anything holding me back I just do what I want. I get bored easily and get into trouble because of it. My father and brother seem like psychopaths imo. My dad even I know is manipulative. He never cares about anything whatever goal he has but only for himself. He never seems to regret what he does. Especially to me. My brother is kind of the same but more violent. I have an aunt and her family seems somewhat histrionics. I have another aunt that has borderline personality disorder. A lot other fmily have otheer personality flaws. My mom is a former alcoholic. Hated me from birth. But loves my brother. There is a lot of alcoholism in my mother's family. My grandpa had an identity theft problem kept moving I don't know why but changed our family name because of it? Also we're related very distantly to an insane serial killer. I have never wanted to hurt nyone for no reason. And I've always thought horribly of rape. I get into fights at times. My world does revolve around me because why not? As a child I was just a shell and even though I didn't hurt people I didn't steal I didn't do anything but small controversies like destroy other kid's property and not feeling sorry for it. I pretended to be sorry when I was nt and people believed. I've never felt sorry for anything. It's like well thts just how the cookie crumbles del with it. I hate authority as well i don't like doing what other people tell me to do I do what I want. What do you think do I have antisocial personality disorder?
I did an extensive research project on aspd in my Social Anthropology class this previous school year.. Have you done any online reading about it? There's a lot of really good sites that will tell you all of the symptoms. Aspd is more common than people think, and it is estimated that 3/100 people in America have some form of it, psychopath or sociopath. It basically means that you have no conscience, and are willing to do absolutely anything to get what you want. If you are questioning yourself, you are already on the right path, because most people with aspd will never believe that there is anything wrong with them. If it is a problem in your life, or you feel unsure about yourself, you may want to seek professional help, or pick up some self help books. It's incurable, but you can learn to control it, to the best of your ability. Also, it hasn't been proven that it's linked genetically, so if your family expresses symptoms as well, the most you can assume is that you learned by example, because the mental illness aspd is usually caused by damage to the frontal lobe, which controls things such as emotion and social skills.
