My last lsd trip was the strongest i ever had. I converesed with myself inside a trip about life problems and well this is hard to explain but here goes... I basically went so deep into thought i decided i could change myself if it was needed. In this plane of thought i was in i could litterally pick out personality traits i like dislike etc and add remove them to my own. Now i was scared i didnt wanna fuck myself up by changing too much in my mind but theres a girl ive loved probably 3 years or so so but we cant really work out right now we go to school 4 hours away. We only see each other when were home from college brakes and get close every summer. I decided i wanted to try to lose my feelings for her and move on. Next day i didnt have them anymore. It was as if she was a childhood memory that i cherished but no longer cared for. I saw her last night. It was like a rush of memories and emotions coming back into my heart i litterally felt it and realized i still love this girl even 100 times more than i thought i used to. Today i feel as if ive been a shell of who i used to be since that trip. As if a void in my heart has finally been filled and i love her again. My question is has anyone else had these type of trips where they change there mind and later realize how much of a mistake. I feel like i abused lsd and used it to change something that wasnt meant to be and it left me a shell of who i used to be. which i realized last night and was fixed.
i'd say that it is generally not a good idea to trip when you are having emotional problems like those mentioned above. lsd tends to magnify what is already there. youll be fine, just give it some time. you may have to deal with some bad feelings for a while but it will pass.
From the information you provided it doesn't sound like you abused LSD, providing novel perspectives is what it's about. With that said, trying to suppress feelings and/or dislikes you may have is not a good approach with Psychedelics, LSD in particular. Contemplative thoughts and feelings can arise in a trip which you will likely not have much control over, which is why often people reccommend to take care of possible outside factors and influences going into a trip. Now if the reason for taking the drug were to suppress feelings/thoughts then I'd consider that abuse but I think that would be difficult for many to do with LSD.
sounds like good advice. i dont trip in order to get rid of life problems and only do when im in a good mood etc but you know how thoughts just flow. In the future ill try to stay away from that part of my mind while tripping that deals with personal problems but in relaity i did learn. not to go there as a warning to anyone reading. you can change yourself but leave yourself as a shell you used to be. not a positive change
Good luck with that :sunny: If it comes up, it comes up, trying to avoid it generally makes things worse.
You didn't abuse LSD, it was yourself that you abused. LSD doesn't let you arbitrarily change personality aspects of yourself or deeply held convictions or feelings. It may have temporarily enhanced your will to put this girl out of your mind, that is until you physically saw her again and the depth of your true feelings came crashing down upon you. To use LSD to deceive yourself is to miss the point of LSD. Perhaps instead of trying to do what amounts to hypnotizing yourself into not loving someone, perhaps you could discern a way to make these feelings known to her, or to channel your energy into another endeavor, such as the exploration of other romantic options, or art, or work, etc. You're going to eventually have to do something though . . . you can't just keep going on and on deeply in love with a person without them knowing it and without you being able to be with them. You'll have to decide how your heart, your mind and your life move forward from here; you'll have to figure out what that means for you on all levels. Most people will tell you from experience to just tell her and accept the consequences as the lesser pain possible here (the greater pain being continuing on the way you are now). This is a relationship issue, not an LSD issue.
