Desperate for sex, but no one to try it with

Recently, all of my fantasies have been about me sucking a guy off. I cant stop thinking about it. Unfortunately, I dont know many guys that are gay or go both ways. In fact, I had my heart set on one guy that I knew was bi but has not seen in 3 years. I finally found the oppurtunity to see him, and planned to talk with him about it and try it on him. When I met him for the first time this weekend, I found that his physical appearance has changed since I last saw him. He's a but taller now, and of a thicker build, almost like a lumberjack, but not really as 'hot' in my eyes as before. This is ironic, though, since I am struggling in the hotness department myself, and much more than he. But anyway...

I just found out that two other people I know are bi, but I dont think I could bring myself to do anything with them either. One for a similar reason as the above, the other for reasons I wont go into.

While my college does have a 'Gay Club', the male/female ratio (of the whole college) hugely favors females. Though I cant say I have been to one of their meetings, and have no time left in the semester to go now, I imagine it would be mostly the goth/punk/emo girls. Anyway, I am leaving it for the local Community College next year, which is larger and hopefully more varied.

I guess my question is: How does one find interested men? At one point, I was so desperate that I responded to a CraigsList ad. Thank God that never panned out. I have not really 'come out' to any of my friends, so they cannot help me. Being on my own, I do not meet new people frequently. I also live in a rural area, so there are no large hotspots where people congregate. I have to cross the Bay just to get to the nearest big city. I have searched various Internet personals, and found nothing of interest. Any tips?

And as for the guy I talked about in the first paragraph, would it be a bad idea to bring some alcohol next time i see him to help me 'reconsider' it? If I did not already have police trouble, we could be "burning down the forest" around his family's ample famland... But would being under the influence result in 'bad decisions', or would it do more to release my inhibitions and let me do what I really want?

 

At the moment I'd put you under the label of bi-curious, a trip to the city might be worth it, a bit of dilly dally to see how you really feel about intimacy with guys.

But unfortunately the way it is, is that most gay guys from rural areas eventually move to urban areas to escape hetero idiots and be around people more like them which has the effect of making it even harder to find proper man on man action in rural areas. If you turn out gay, unless you want to live your life on scraps of married guys you'll eventually have to move to the big city

 

Yeah, I figured as much. But even then, how can you tell if someone swings that way, sans actually asking?