confusing boy...

so i had this guy who i thought was really good looking and i worked with. but i had a boyfriend so i tried not to talk to him so as to not get tempted because he was really cool too.
i quit my job coz i got sick and i took a break from my bf. the day this other guy lets call him Man . found out me and my bf were not together he came over and we spent hours talking and got along together like noone i have ever known. he is so amazing. we had sex that day and another time. he freaked out on me the 2nd time and told me to get out. i had got him to open up about some of his personal life and it scared the hell out of him.
so i got back wih my bf, and we moved into together after about 4 months and things werent working with him, i so wasnt happy but i really tried to make the relationship work.my bf went on a camping weekend with the boys. i got together with 'man' i hadnt seen since i'd got back with my bf, and i was instantly entranced by him. i cheated on my bf that night and i am ashamed to admit it but i didnt know what to do... just pretend i was happy all the time?
so my housemate tells my bf when he gets back that i cheated on him and he breaks up with me and kicks me out. I got out some of my shit and left, went to my folks for dinner and then over to 'man's house.i think he is falling in love with me but he grew up in a fucked life without any good relationships. so anyways. i slept with him the night me and we were really falling and enjoying each others company. but i want to be single and this other guy isnt keen to enter a relationship coz love scares him. so we just decided that we would do whatever we wanted.

so.Me and my friend went to this massive party and i took an acid tab and drunk two bottles of wine. me and Man met up at this party and he just instantly grabbed me and put me down in this room and fucked me and then left the party and my friend had to go to hospital and i was stranded at this party with like 200 people and i knew noone and somehow this random guy found me and we smoked some cones and then went back to his mates place and smoked more cones and he fucked me pretty much all night. i wasnt really into it but i didnt know what to do. Man called me the next night and he asked me what happened and how i got home and everything and i told him sorta vague details. and then i asked if i would see him again... coz he had been quiet for a while, and he said, i dunno?... he said, maybe we'll catch up later in the week. it was weird. i really thought he was falling for me but he told me that when he starts to get those feelings that he runs away?... so i dunno, i dont want to care. but i have started falling for him, and i really dont want to loose him as a friend.

 

maybe "man" is just "scared of love" with someone who cheated with him and probably would also cheat on him.

on the other hand, i'd like to spend 20 minutes with you because i haven't been laid in a while.

 

Maybe if you are going to go around fucking random men, i'm sure Man has maybe had second thoughts?

You never explained what you told him, you don't even know if he knew this other guy. Personally, if I was into a girl and she put out with me and another person, I would think she was sort of slaggy. Sorry, big turn off.

 

Let me see if I've got this right. You cheated on your boyfriend with Man. Then developed feelings for Man, whom you slept with again at the party. Instead of going to the hospital with your friend, you stayed and slept with another guy?

I wonder why he's gone quiet.

 

Wow. You really are confused, aren't you? Why don't you take a break from men in general for a little while and try to figure out what you really want for yourself?

 

wtf you need some serious soul searchin sista

 

Yeah I remember that thread about you cheating on your boyfriend about a week ago. I wouldn't want to be with anyone who cheated on their girlfriend to be with me. I mean seriously you have some issues you need to work out before you hop into a relationship!

 

20 minutes?

 

i'm figuring it will take 15 minutes to talk her into it...

 

.... and lass than two weeks ago...

Soooo- let's see how this revision is working... since you didn't like the moral outrage expressed in the first version of this story you've rewritten?

My advice to you is to take a vow of celibacy.

 

:iagree:

 

lol. i have a messy head.
i need a diary, instead of a forum site

 

You have a messy posting life. It is just that simple.

Or perhaps a memory problem. Overactive possibly.

http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=397414&f=283

 

Put me on that fuckin list too, you sound kinky.

 

Oh yeah, and you telling him you went to random dudes house all night prolly turned him off more than anything. See he's prolly the way he is cause of people like you. But still, I'd fuck ya.. on a bad day.

 

haha.
i may, or may not, forget about the posts i've written... it wouldn't be the first time... especially when i am at a different stage of my -in real life- life.
haha... in real life...

the guy is still totally into me... just took me to meet his folks actually.


we are just enjoying each others company... i'm not going to go into a relationship with anyone.
I really, need to figure myself out, first. duh.

so basically all this stuff on here doesnt make sense.... because I'm a real person, and we dont make sense, i dont care what all you guys say on here coz i dont even remember posting it.
and i can easily go back to my REAL life where although everybody knows everything about me... EVERYONE still wants to know me, and loves me...
If you knew me in real life well... it'd probably make complete sense to you.
i'm a smoking hot 21 yr hot with a crazy messy head... but with a beautiful kind loving soul.... guys just cant seem to get enough

yeah... i need a diary...

 

Your posts make me want to scratch my eyes out.

 

She's just trying to justify being a flake and now leeching onto another guy before she dumps his life into the gutter as well. Jus the usual, nothing new here. They are all the same.

 

You've all been trolled.

 

haha. no, dont stop, keep trying telling me stuff about myself...