I know that this is mainly my own fault. But for years before marriage I was curious. I have since a teen cross dressed and enjoyed dildoing myself. I always watch either gay or trans porn and when me and my wife have sex, I think of men or wish we could swap roles. I want to bring it up but don't know how. I want to be me. But have her too. Anyone else had this experience?
I was (and still am!) a married family man in my early forties when I suddenly discovered my deep, long-suppresed longing to be on the receiving end of another man's lustful, hard-driving sexual desire (an expicit account of that cataclysmic event can be found in my Postings). But as surely as I knew that I would do whatever I had to do to fulfill my awakened forbidden longing, I also knew that I would have to do so in absolute secrecy -- that no one -- and especially my wife & family -- could ever know...! And so I began to search for (and find!) those men-who-like-men who could (and who did, many, many times!) satisfy my secret desires! (Quite a number of which are related in my Postings as well.) I can assure you that there is nothing more sexually and emotionally exhillirating and fulfilling than lying on your back, looking up into the eyes of your same-sex man-lover.
So, there are lots of guys in the same position as me? Not alone etc... Like I love my wife. But I just desire to be held by a man and feel him inside me.
I am exactly the same and you are certainly not alone! I'm lucky enough to have a good mate and we can enjoy some good bi sex occasionally. There are a lot of guys that desire exactly what we do.
There are lots of us. I understand the desire to let have the wife know, and there are those out there that have done that and have her be understanding about it and allow it. However, there are many more of us(myself included) that the wife can never know about it. My wife would never want to know about it. So I am very secretive and discreet about my bisexuality. It is just a guess, but if your wife would be ok with it you would have some indication about it. In my circumstance I greatly value my marriage. Sexually we aren’t compatible anymore but there are many more areas that we are. I have indulged my bisexuality many times, but no one can know about it. And yes it is gratifying to lay on your back with a mans cock inside of you while he goes to town plunging in and out of you. Sucking him until he bursts into your hungry mouth. Him doing the same for you. It’s nice to be with someone who desires you sexually.
ALL OF THIS. I played with guys when I was single. Met a girl and got married. I thought that my days of enjoying men were over. WRONG. It took me a while to understand that I really like cock (in addition to pussy). But, I know my wife well enough to know that she would freak if she found out. So, it will be my secret... forever.
There are many of us in this situation..This site has shown me I am not alone in my secret desires and love of cock
Its important to have that reassurance. I'm glad that I have connected with other cock lovers like you. We are all normal, sexual beings.
Do you guys play away often? I'd like to meet a similar guy and meet regularly. Rather than just meet a dick head off Grindr...most in my area seems to be sick heads. I'm sure there are some decent guys on there.
What's so wrong about keeping it in the closet? Mine has been happily there for over five and a half decades! I do enjoy sharing on this site, though.
Closeted to society, but not my wife. However, she does not celebrate my bisexuality with me, or for me. In fact, she spends most of our marriage either guilting my sexuality or trying to cockblock my efforts if she sees me surfing, or chatting w/ guys trying to hook up. Such as it is, it is pushing me more towards finding a boyfriend I can let off steam with. Life's too short.
