I'm always extremely stressed and anxious; I'm literally on the verge of a "nervous breakdown" at all times. I lack any real coping techniques and I isolate myself from my the world, including my family. To deal with all this I smoke weed all day every day; I spend at least 90% of my income on it. At this point I know that it, or rather my constant use of it, is probably hurting more than helping, but it's the ONLY thing that gets me through every day. It's not a hard drug, it's safe, and daily use won't leave me homeless digging for food in alleyways like it will with so many other drugs. Watching all my worries go up in smoke after I expend every ounce of my effort and patience getting through the bullshit of every day is nothing short of miraculous. I love Mary Jane. No matter what happens, no matter how mentally unstable I become, she will always be there for me. She is my best friend. As I watch more and more of the things I took for granted slip away from me, the dreams I've always had crumble in front of me, and my small number of friends and family dwindle yet smaller, a freshly packed bowl of this colorful frosty deliciousness calls to me. It tells me that for the next 2-3 hours, all that will matter is having a cigarette and listening to good music. Maybe play a videogame or just relax and stare at the TV for a few hours. Then I come down. Reality hits me again. And I have a choice: be depressed and anxious and wallow in my misery, or get high. And my answer is always the same.
You are only 19. You can still turn things around. Get your priorities in check and go from there. You don't have to quit smoking, but cutting back can't hurt. I realize it's a lot easier said than done.
Something smacks of poseur,,,or maybe LE,,or maybe just a conservative on the loose, sowing disinformation. Or maybe I'm just paranoid. :beatnik:
Lol. Either you've got very serious issues, or..... No, you've got very serious issues. But they're the funny kind, that you caused yourself and continue to cause. Yes, weed IS harmful, just because it's not physically breaking things doesn't mean it's not a serious problem. Not to say that's because it's weed, there's also fat people who say it's JUST food. But you're fucking your head worse and worse, and when they cart you away I will laugh.
ever considered cutting back and dealing with your issues? assuming there actually are issues aside from occasional sobriety.
you cant sustain 90% income spent on weed....its easy to smoke free weed...then you would have money to do other stuff and repair other areas of your life.....figure it out
There are many days that I think I cant make it through without weed. My anxiety and depression issues have been getting worse over the last couple of years. I even considered getting tested for bipolar disorder. Sometimes you just know something is wrong with you that's beyond your control. seeing a psychiatrist?
There are to days you can get through without weed...would you actually die if none of your connects answered the phone for a 24 hour period? No, you'd just be pissy and a bit off, prolly not sleep well...posts like these and the OP's do nothing but fuel anti-marijuana propaganda. Sounds harsh, but get a real hobby. Also, why's the post all about sativa? Show some love for the indica!
