Back in the day, i used to do anywhere from 2-6 e's a day.. that lasted about 8 months. every single day. has anyone else done this much? or maybe even more? i've noticed, that since ive stopped, im alot worse off than i used to be, mentally. other drugs dont even seem to do the trick in making me feel euphoric, or happy in any way anymore. is it possible that the amount of ecstasy that i did, changed my brain chemicals for good?
Yeah, happy chemicals in your brain are like cars, and in order to work, they have to be parked in parking lots called receptors. You flooded your receptors with -way- too many cars for a long time, so your brain adjusted by lowering the number of parking lots, so that the net total amount of cars being parked is closer to what it should be. Unfortunately, getting back your original number of parking lots takes a long time of abstinence. Don't do any mdma for a year man, other things should be ok, just not mdma.
I havent done mdma for over 6 months, but I still feel horrible. When i first stopped using e, i started using oxy. and i felt great, euphoric, happy, everything oxy makes you feel i felt. But now when i do my oxy, it just makes me angry, and im starting to think that my serotonin is permanently damaged. I mean, if oxy cant make me happy, nothing can
it's because the solution to E not working is not "start doing opiates". That's an even WORSE habit to have. Just stay clean man, you will recover, but you need to be clean for like a year, if you absolutely must do any drug just smoke herb, and even that may make your recovery take much longer.
i had done the same thing pretty much, i jusr weened myself off slowley.....dident get a buzz from the pills for about 5 months! just slowley lowered my dose till i felt i could stop. now i feel better then i did when i started......but everyones different.......
2-6 beans a day, thats pretty crazy. my advice: go cold turkey from the e, stay healthy, work out, eat a shitload of protein, and if u do feel the need to get fucked up smoke some budd
I'm somewhat reluctant to say this because I would hate for you to say "fuck it" if you thought there was a chance you might no recover, but there is a small chance that the structure of your brain has changed permanently. MDMA has caused permanent changes in the brains of non-human primates, but extrapolating such data and applying it to humans is always risky business. I really hope that your receptors slowly begin popping up again as your brain becomes used to natural levels of serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine. You may want to consider seeing a psychiatrist, although not being honest with him or her would make the visit pointless, and there are reasons why you may want to keep your drug abuse a secret. It's a tough situation man. See how you feel in 6 months, but if eliminating drugs from your life doesn't prove to be enough, don't rule out seeking professional help.
