As I was setting here today daydreaming about sucking a guys cock, I started wondering why or what sexual pleasure I got out of it. There’s no immediate pleasure like getting sucked so I wonder what is the turn on? I’m not attracted to men so while I want him to enjoy I don’t get off on his pleasure. When I go down on my wife, I am stimulated by her pleasure but it’s different with a guy. While I’ve never done more than oral, I want to bottom and only bottom and while some say they get great pleasure from it others say the enjoyment for them is knowing their partner is enjoying them. I wonder what it is with me that in bisexual activities my fun is having a guy use me for his fun without me necessarily getting anything in return
As for myself I also enjoy being bottom. The few times that I have do so, and if we had discussed him topping me, I would always prepare to be clean. I do understand that topping someone does not really cause me very much pleasure unless we were in a growing relationship. I would also be sure that he has taken the time to clean-up any to prevent, any problems. So you are not alone.
I very much enjoy ass play with myself. I seem to have extra sensitivity because my hole kinda spasms when touched sexually. I’ve had trouble getting cock size vibrators in without some pain/discomfort. But a finger or even just pressure can make my orgasm crazy good. So I might be looking for pleasure as a bottom. I’m a guys guy in the real world. Provider, fixer so maybe I just want to be “taken” like a less dominant role. When I fantasize about bottoming it’s not the macho type of porn guys do. I want to be on my back (missionary) him on top laying on me kissing as he cums in me. So there’s definitely some submissiveness there. Now oral on the other hand I have no idea. Maybe it’s just the sexual situation but blowing a guy is just hot.
It was my greatest fear of being a lonely Old man, sucking cocks, as a replacement for my sex life! I believe that most folks are looking at it the wrong way. The facts are, it gives you a better another option, for continuing to have an active sex life, well into your most senior years, and access to a pool of partners who really do not give a flying fuck about age. Often, I struggle to think of many other situations, where that is true. We are all at risk of finding ourselves alone when we are older, you might well be less isolated or depressed with a stream of delicious cocks in and out of your house all day. I am not normally attracted to all men at all. But once I did find myself curious about sucking cock and went from there. I immediately loved everything about it. I did not make a long list of taboos, but it did not take long for those that I had established to fall by the wayside. I have kissed, I have sucked and swallowed cum. I have rimmed, and I have enjoyed being penetrated by another hard cock. And I am stills not attracted to men. My advice would be to accept yourself and your desires and dip your toe into the water. Wade in a little more and see how deep it gets. If your head is screwed-on straight, you will still be the same decent guy you were after you have experimented, regardless of how far you allowed it to go. I am just turned on by a smooth shaved hard cock and also, especially if shaved smooth. Sometimes I just want to taste it so bad and feel my mouth around it. Then I put my tongue tracing the head and sucking it like my personal lollipop. Also, deep and touching a guy’s tight balls or maybe running the tip of my tongue under the seam, maybe place my finger in butt. What matters more to me is, do you have the desire? The thing to always remember is that you can be Bisexual, any way you want to, and you do not have to conform to some imaginary standard; you can change how you want or need to be Bisexual any time you want to!
I don’t have a lot of hang ups now. I’m in my 40s and I like sex with men and women but love women. I don’t care too much about labels anymore. Now rewind 20 years watching bi porn (no gay) then the first time watching gay porn with a vibrator stuffed up my ass humming away with a toe curling orgasm and I blurt out to no one “ohh yes fuck my ass goood” I thought ok I need to have a conversation with myself and see if I’m hiding something lol. It made me confused so when I was out and about I looked at guys. I talked to guys. If I saw a nice looking man and woman walking I checked to see which I wanted. It was always the woman and not the guy. Just no attraction. So I accepted what I am. I still don’t know what it is that makes me want a cock in my mouth but I do and it’s fun.
if taken to the extreme, it could indicate lack of self-worth.. wanting to be used/abused/cast aside.. but your post doesn't indicate that at all.. I'd say you've always enjoyed pleasing others.. that's not a bad thing.. so have fun...
It's not that you get nothing in return. You enjoy the thought of being "used" by another guy, and lots of bi bottoms have similar fantasies
