Being open minded can lead to great sexual experiences

While breifly separated from my wife , decades ago, I was fucking like crazy and didn't turn down any women that would were game for a little fun. I have to say that being a bartender can get you laid as often as you would like to. Unless your a real mess.I wasnt looking for a gf or anykind of attachments. I felt as though I was making up for lost time and had an open mind about my new experiences. This led to threesomes and many older women. To me, all women were beautiful. You didn't have to be pretty, to be beautiful. Some of the best bodies were attached to, what some would consider not so pretty.
An older woman taught me about anal pleasure and another about being open minded enough to enjoy the MMF threesome for what it was. I learned that it turns some women on, to fuck them with strapons and see the men sucking each other too. I felt a new openess to being able to enjoy things for what they were rather than slap a label on it and make assumptions. Since this is the bi forum,I just wanted to say that I can enjoy mutual bjs with a friend without any hangups about it.
Have you overcome any hangups that opened your mind and opened the door to some fantastic sexual experiences and orgasms?

 

I struggled a lot with my bisexuality for the first 21 years. I would masturbate to gay fantasies and porn a lot, and go out to bathhouses, gay sex clubs, arcades, etc., feeling super gay and very aroused to have every kind of sex with other men. But almost every time a real naked guy was in front of me in those places, I lost all desire, but still sucked guys' cocks, feigning great enthusiasm. But back at home all the gay fantasies and desires came back, until they were strong enough to drive me out looking to fulfil those desires, only to be disappointed once again in my feelings. And despite my strong anal fantasies and desires, I never had any wish to do anything anally with another real guy. But there were a few exceptions where I had kept strong desire and attraction to the guy in front of me, and I enjoyed the oral sex a lot, but still felt nothing anal. But those exceptions were 5 or 6 guys out of over 200. But it was enough for me to keep chasing that sexual high. There was definitely something weird going on, some kind of hang up in me. I called it bi-confusion.

Then about 8 years ago I had an overpowering anal desire for this young twink in a bathhouse, and I went ape shit on his ass, tonguefucking his hole with more hungry than I've ever experienced for more than an hour before giving into his screaming pleas to fuck him. Loving his asshole like that, and finally putting my cock inside another man for the first time, was the greatest sexual experience of my life, and changed everything for me. I felt like I connected with some deep gay part of myself, and brought it more to the surface, and not only accepted it, but loved it, and became very proud of the gay part of myself. I immediately stopped all anonymous encounters, and just started getting together with other guys in each other's homes. That was so much better. I not only enjoyed having oral sex with every one these guys, but I had lots of anal desires with some of them as well, finally matching my fantasies and what I liked in gay porn and erotica to real life.

Then I fell in love with a woman 5 years ago, and so I stopped seeing men. We broke up in December 2019, and I was so eager, practically out of my mind with gay lust, to start seeing guys again, for sex at least, though Ia fantasize about more. But then the pandemic hit. I've only seen one guy twice during these last 18 months, but hopefully that will begin to change. I'm very eager to get back to exploring my bisexuality, really letting the gay part of me out of its cage, and learn more about it and myself.