Back To Talk Some More

I'm just not sure what to do, and I don't really want to continue on with life. For those of you who read my "currently weighing my options" thread, you've heard what my stance is on life.

I just don't really have the life force or the desire to keep going or to make something of myself. It's too late for that anyway. I'm too old and too far gone. There will be people who say "its not too late for you, its never too late" are really just a bunch of deluded bleeding hearts who I'd like to slap in the face with an iron claw. Even if I could improve, I just don't want it at this point. I just.....uuuggghhh.....want to die.

It really pisses me off when people just won't admit that suicide is a perfectly fine option, and will not concede that some people just don't value life like they do.

People think conquering depression or sickness is all there is to finding a will for life again and living a good life. I wish we lived in societies where suicide was viewed with understanding and respect.

I'm too old and too far gone to start building a good life. My life is parasitic and will always be so regardless of what I do. I don't like life and I want to give it up. I just wish people were willing to understand that and grant me that blessing.

I'm sure they'll delete this thread in the typical fascist fashion of discussion forums. I just came back to talk about my suicidal thoughts. You can all rest assured that I'm not currently at risk of suicide. I'm just talking.