Lol, and I thought a bought with my old scripts could last till refill, BS!. at 120 30mg roxys and 60 40mg Opana ER, I still fell a week short. Im on Subs to stay, its just not worth switching back and forth and Opana is by far the worst for tollerance. In the end I could swallow 4 30mg roxies and feel well. Thankfully I have about 40 days worth of Subs before i need to find another Sub Doc unlesss I can get to a level I can jump off of.
Just be happy you're getting 120 30mg roxy's, I live around the same area as you and get thrown nucynta for pain because of my age. Although getting off oxycodone was one of the worst experiences I ever had.
Again, my best of luck to you. I just feel awful that you can't seem to get the Subs to provide a pleasant feeling for you. Maybe once you get on a low low dose it won't affect you so badly. What are you taking now? I noticed since i went from 6mg per day to around 3.5mg per day recently that I have had much more euphoric experiences from it, although not as intense. Hard to describe, really, but I am happy with it.
I enjoy them as well. Just 1-2mg a day and i feel happy, energetic, and get waves of euphoria. And if i skip a couple days. I can blow a 1mg line and feel rather euphoric. It does not interfere with my life in any way at all really. I never run out bc i have no need to abuse them. I am prescribed 4mg a day and take half of that most of the time. I just feel like less is more....but dont be confused with enjoyment and being high. I would not call the euphoria a high but just a stimulating buzz. If your mad because the subs do not carry you to cloud nine the way oxy and H or whatever your DOC was, then your taking it for the wrong enjoyment.
After being in withdrawals for about 18 hrs i took 6mg strip, 3/4 of a full strip. Then About 8 hrs later I have been doing about 1.5mgs of subutex snorted about every 6hrs. I will dial that down to 3mgs/day where i was when i left, within next day or so. whatever feels comfortable to me, maybe sooner. I forget how long this stuff last!