My life is fucking up, Everytime i try and confront, find out why I am feeling the way i do . . I just think what a stupid Tw*t i am . . Everything i do just backfires . . And Argh, See even while I'm typing this All i can think about is Just delet this message and stop being silly. I'm driving myself Insane! I have tried bottleing stuff up - but that just fucks me up even more. Even Now! I'm getting it. God sake! It's small things and when they all add up it really get's me down, y'know? Am now that i'm becoming more in touch with what i believe is god, I'm asking him for help with my problems. Iv'e had this for ages, but I haven't said anything because i don't what to be classed as a stuipd kid that thinks he has problems when people in 3rd world countries are dieing from un-clean water! I can only hope that i can get an enlightenment and sort this Shit out. My mind has changed so much. And my mind always wonders to why don't you take the easiest way out? It's not excatly hard? Just a kick sting, Let your life drain slowly out of your body and your on your way out. Just the way my mind puts it (suicide) It makes it sound like it's easy, Natural. I'm always at war with myself. Another side of me will kick in and say only a coward would take that route out, and it's a sin. So, My mind is Fucking with me! My own Mind!
Take a walk alone in nature. Surround yourself with the trees and birds. Just let your mind float and escape all the bullshit. Even if you have to drive 2 hours do it. Driving always helps me anways. Then go back to your life in reality and deal with it. Attack the shit that troubles you. If you let your problems continue to bother you whatever it may be, one of these days it will break you. Dont let that happen.
