are you happy now?

right at this very moment are you happy?


i'm not....
my friend tried all night to make me happy
and although i appreciate his efforts, i don't think its possible for me to be happy...


so yeah.... are you happy?

 

I'm sorry. WHats wrong?


I am alright..more tired and a bit more stressed than I'd like-but overall not unhappy

 

At this exact moment? No.

I've been sick all day...my sleep patterns are all now messed up...I miss my boyfriend...and want to go HOME!

 

this isn't a thread to get people to sympathize for me
although thank you for your unnecessary concern

today was a shitty day for me, i got crap from my family and i got crap from my work, but it's nothing unusual...my job is shit and i put up with it...

i just kind of want to know what makes people happy...
because for me although i have moments of happiness i am never truly happy



annie i'm sick too so i can understand you completely on that and the sleep patterns thing too
although i don't have a boyfriend and i actually want to leave my home.....

 

I was soooo depressed tonight. I'm better now.

 

what made you better? *if you don't mind me asking*

 

Nope.

 

UGH, my sleep pattern is so screwed..thats actually what has me stressed more than anything.
my hubby works the nightshift and comes home and we have dinner at like 3 am..so
My 3 yr old has been going to sleep at 6 am,my body can't do that,My brain won't go to sleep when the sun is coming up! I attempted to "fix" it by keeping her up after going places,and getting the house all dark and ready for bed when she crashed at 9 pm that day for a nap..and it just made her grumpy and unbearable. I'm tired.
-sorry for the rant.

 

there's no need to apologize for that rant
everyone is entitled to a rant every now and then
with a child that schedule sounds really tough
i hope that you can figure it all out, sleep is very important

honestly if your boyfriend is going to keep a night shift maybe keeping yourself and your baby on a day schedule might be tough in terms of seeing your boyfriend but it would be better in terms of keeping yourself and your kid sane

arlandis, why are you unhappy?
lets get a virtual "coffee" and take about it

 

Just trying not to think about it. Blurring my mind with the internet.... and pizza.

 

Sleeping problems, feeling sick, and a lack of purpose is what's depressing me. I need a job.

 

Theres just nothing going for me to make me happy you know

at the risk of sounding emo, im just bored & apathetical

 

i'm blurring my mind with alcohol

i have the same problems
i'm sick and it sucks
and my job that i've had for the past year that has cost me no end of grieve is doing that again
i need to find another job because my boss didn't fire me but pretty much he's only not firing me cause theres no one else that will take my job...and as soon as there is someone else i'm gone...

i need a normal job, with a standard schedule and a standard pay and a standard crappiness about it

and the fact that all my friends are happy and in "relationships" as shallow as that sounds..it makes me so depressed

i'm sick of not getting what i want

 

i've seriously considered hopping a plane for those bored and apathetical reasons
so yeah i know what you mean

 

haha, twice now I've come this close to packing my bags and doing the same

Have you thought about where you'd go? Or just the first plane to "anywhere but here" ?

 

england, spain, parts of europe entice me
honestly anywhere but here
there are so many places that i want to go to
i'm sick of only seeing my little section of the earth, ontario is one of the shitest places
toronto will always be my home and i'll always come back to it, but it is one of the most close minded places

the people that i've met here are the only things keeping me here
i love my friends more than my life

 

Right now I am nervous and tired, might go to sleep.

 

sleep is good, i think i'll prolly read alittle and go to sleep

that tells us how you feel but you said nothing of your happiness meter?
are you happy or mearly content?

what exactly constitutes happiness verses contentness?

 

I would say content...but I am always content heh..
I could be a lot happier, but I am better off than many people... thats content to me.

 

Girl you sound just like me. It's my own fault I don't have a job though.
I'd be drinking or drugging right now, but I don't have either.