Anger, turned into rant about a friend

Why are some people just filled with anger? I listen to the angriest music out there, have sick thoughts all the time, and yet I've been formulated to just keep my composure at all times. I get angry, but I don't really release it, and I'm fine with that. Sometimes I vent out when shit hits the fan, but I've never really done anything to hurt anyone under my worst times. My friend is probably the most rage filled person. There are a lot of psychological issues he has to deal with, being raised in a broken home with an alcoholic father and a mother who committed suicide when he was young, but his older sister is one of the most nice and compassionate people I've ever met. His younger brother is probably the most fucked up out of all of them, but I think that's because he started smoking weed at a very young age by my standards anyway.

He is a pseudo-gangster, so that may be one of the problems. Constantly listening to rap(not saying theres anything wrong with it, I listen to it myself, but you can't let it get to your head especially when your a tiny white boy), he is always talking about beating the shit out of people to solve your problems. He gets mad at the littlest things and starts shaking and yelling and it is so ridiculous. He got arrested for spazzing out on his little brother and all of his neighbors because he did something so trivial as take his mini electric motorcycle without his permission. Even when I got the shit beaten out of me a few days ago for no reason at all, I had to hold him back from going and doing something incredibly stupid. I'm supposed to be the angry person in that case, but I was just looking to another day to solve this.

I feel bad for him because I've known him since 6th grade and he used to be this smart little kid who just fucked up severely down the road. I wish there was something I could do to help him, and I've tried to guide him down the paths of life, but it never worked, not once. I feel like one of these days hes going to do something to get me in trouble, which could be completely avoided, but I almost feel as if he needs me there as a role model. Maybe I am sounding a bit self-righteous, but I truly believe that the way I think and live would make a lot of people's lives better.

His life is literally going no where. He basically dropped out of school, getting an appeal freshman year, and not finishing sophomore and junior year. He lives his life on the principle that we are all going to die in 2012, and that is a really pessimistic and destructive way to live. I can see the good in his heart, but it has been covered by a black veil. His dreams have gone from going to UConn after high school, to going to community college, to going to the army, to not giving a fuck until 2012, which is too late. Its like the only important thing to him is the present, and he doesn't see the future, which has been proved time and time again, doesn't work. His only desire in life is to get as "fucked up" as possible.

I guess thats the end of my rant. I've just had this on my mind for a while and needed to get it off my chest. I don't have any brothers or sisters, barely any cousins, and a few aunts and uncles which I rarely keep in touch with. My two dear loves in this world are my parents and my friends, and I just hate to see shit turn so sour.

 

tl;dr

 

Anger is a tremendous character flaw.

But people are filled with anger because they feel like they have been mistreated by life and because they lack self-control, among other things.

I didn't read your post, so I don't feel like I can comment.

The people that you are friends with say a lot about who you are as a person though. Think about that.

 

seafort, he smokes more weed than i do.

bravesirrubin, the only resemblance between us is that we like to smoke weed now that i think about it. theres a lot more minor, but thats the major thing. i feel like im at a crossroads because hes my boy for life and im trying to save him from himself, but i feel like i need to stop hanging around with him because hes going to get me into some serious shit.

 

You are in no position to save him from himself.

He'll come to you if he wants your help, otherwise... you'll simply piss him off. Just don't encourage his self-destructive behavior... that's probably the best thing you can do.

 

i thought beating the shit out of people is the best way to solve problems...

 

some people are toxic to themselves and others.

those that disagree are incredibly naive.

so i say you ditch him.

 

Be a friend and leave him alone.

 

Hey If it's not 2012 then its 2029 and the meteor apophis which will
impact on april 13, 2029


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