it's been a long while now. my kids and I have gotten out from under the isolation and abuse and are in a different state. sometimes I am elated and proud of my own strength at taking action to change my life, sometimes I am depressed at all the mistakes I've made in the past...so I am human and on my journey. I've come to realize that many people say they are works in progress, I myself said it for years as I continued on in a negative relationship full of negative and abuse behaviors and thought patterns. I was neither working nor making any progress, today I am. sometimes I am in great pain, sometimes I feel pure confidence and elation, but the significant improvement is that I am feeling something. If you are living in a miserable relationship because of fears and doubts, I pray you will find the strength to take the first step and walk away. You couldn't be any more alone than you are when you are living without love. all the love you need is already in your heart. learn to embrace the wonderful beautiful unique gift that is your life. Each day I continue to struggle to do this for myself, each day I get healthier and more in balance, each day I am grateful to god for all. thank you for the loving supportive community I witnessed here while I was so alone in life. you were my lifelines, and I bless you all
