All The Way Down (trip report)

All the way down to the bottom
All the way down to the fire
All the way down to the devil
Beelzebub
(To the bottom of the pit, now)

I got sins
Piled high
Wait for me
When I die
Holy love
Dirty deed
You don’t care

Fire burns
Cold as ice
No more hate
No more lies
Coffin nailed
Dirty deeds
No more life

so at bonnaroo i took two hits of these grateful dead hits i had gotten a month or two earlier an hour before the moe set on saturday night. well, they far exceeded my expectations.

after 5 minutes i was feeling an extremely strong acid buzz. the one that you get right before you start tripping. after 30 minutes i was tripping on a level par to just about all of my 1 hit lsd experiences. 30 minutes later and i was gone.

i met some random girl at the moe set while i was waiting for my friends to show up. we talked for a while and then all chilled once my friends arrived. some of the opening songs were just great, and the combination of having all my friends and this girl there put me off an extremely positive vibe. but soon she had left and so had we.

we wandered over to nine inch nails. they were playing some intense ego-shredding music. it was a great enviroment, until we wandered up to some jackass. he decided it would be a good idea to use his glowsticks to try to mess with us and talk about death and black holes and shit. instead of being freaked out we kind of just stared at him blankly as if you to say, "wow, you are a real fucking douche" shortly afterwards we went back to moe for a quick song and then onwards to MGMT.

MGMT was packed. there were so many people. we managed to get up a little outside the perimeter of the covered area which meant we got fairly decent spots. at this point it must have been blatently obvious to everyone that me and all my friends were tripping really hard. we were all radiating energy. we met some extremely hot girl there with whom we shared our views about how much mgmt was sucking currently. i didn't really even realise that mgmt had come on yet. i thought that it was some filler band playing up on stage while we were waiting for mgmt to come out. our time at mgmt pretty much consisted of someone saying "dude, is this really mgmt?" followed by about 10 minutes of hysterical laughter by everyone.

so we went back to the moe set. we chilled out in an open area away from the stage. two of our friends had been set off on a bad trip from the shittyness that was mgmt. they had to go back to the tents and chill out and go to sleep. which is too bad, because they really missed out after that.

after they left we went to go see nine inch nails again. as soon as we could hear them they started playing hurt. they played it calm, with great perfection. everyone was blank with awe. i felt the love of thousands of souls permeating through the current point in time. nine inch nails capitalised on this. they reached in, grabbed your soul, and led you into infinity. i wish i had stayed for the whole nine inch nails set. when we arrived there for the last song it was blatently obvious that what we were experiencing was the crest of a wave on the verge of infinity. everything was purely magical. fear and doubt was purged from the crowd and slowly drifted up to god. i just can't explain how incredible it was.

afterwards we stood there for a minute and struck up conversation with some of the people around us. none of us even knew what to say about what had just happened. then we went back to the moe set. with nine inch nails out, moe was the only band playing. they knew it too. they knew that they would have all of bonnaroo at their set after that.

when we arrived grace potter and the nocturnals were taking a shift at the stage. grace potter is a fucking godess. everyone at the moe set was on a rediculous amount hallucinogens and had really mellowed out by this point. not many people were making noise. but when they started playing 'she's got the medicine' i just exploded with energy. i yelled insanely loud for insanely long. i had to keep jumping to channel all of this energy that had suddenly come over me. it felt like i had just jumped sky high. grace potter exploded the whole set with raw sexual energy and ran with it. i pretty much had a mental orgasm from how incredible it was. lol. for the next few songs they just built up more and more sexual energy up to the apex of their set.

after moe came back on my friends were pretty ready to go back to the tent and crash, but i was still going strong. it felt like i had been tripping for an eternity but in reality it had only been 3 hours. i told my friends to just head out and that i would be fine on my own. i was really exhausted though, so after they left i went back from the stage some to get a little rest. my heart was going about a million miles an hour. i felt like i was about to have a heart attack. i just couldn't get comfortable in the middle of a field with thousands of people around me so i decided to just go back to the tents for some rest a few minutes later.

everyone was still awake but things were winding down back at the homestead. we chilled for a few until everyone went to sleep except for me. i layed there for a while just relaxing and smoking ciggarettes trying to get my heartrate and bloodpressure under control. eventually they settled down, but now i had other problems. i was all by myself and i knew i was still going to be tripping for an extremely long time. my mind span around faster and faster and became more and more chaotic. when all of the sudden...

break outside...

break outside...

break outside of your cathedral...

moe began to play cathedral.

all of my fears melted away and i felt the pure love that the music was trying to show me. i left the tents straight away and got to the stage as fast as i could.

at this point people who i didn't know were really beginning to trip me out. instead of having a normal conversation with someone i would say something and then they would instantly repeat back to me my thoughts. as i walked down the streets people muttered aloud the inner workings of my head. i was a little curious about this reflection of my energy to say the least. but mostly i just tried to keep moving so i could get to the moe set. once i arrived on the street with a straight shot to the stage the music became much more apparent. i watched the music blow past me with gale force winds of pure harmony. half way down the street i somehow managed to run into the people that were camped out right next to us. i only really recognised one of them, and we were both extremely excited to see eachother. after i told them how hard i was tripping they told me there were no worries as the party was still raging on.

once i arrived in the main crowd i lit up a cig, but it seemed to be bothering the people that were infront of me so i moved to a side area that was less crowded. there i met these two guys they were real jackasses. they tripped me out pretty good, and they for some reason thought it was a good idea to throw empty beer bottles infront of people that were walking by. i moved away from them as fast i could and got right in the center of the moe crowd. things were much better there, as i could rest the uneasiness from those two guys on the shoulders of everyone else in the crowd. everyone was radiating pure love there.

as cathedral drew to a close and rebubula came on i began losing my identity. i no longer saw the world from my own perspective but rather through the perspecive of the crowd as a collective whole. here we all were, at one place in time, shaking the foundations of reality. as the song drew to a close the crowd waved their arms back and forth in unison. we were going down for the third time. down, down, down, down.

moe went off stage after that. but no one moved. we still had unfinished business. one guy a little bit behind me kept on starting clap chants on a trashcan next to him. for a good 5-10 minutes we stood there, waiting. we were not done.

"thank you very much. i swear to god im about to cry. you guys are wonderful. i mean that sincerely. i'm completely straight and sober at this moment, but this is fantastic. the love in this room was great, and this is gunna last for a long time. thank you. we've made an already fantastic weekend. a memory that will last a long time so thank you very much"

that was a pretty good way to describe it. after that he gave some announcments about how many shows everyone had played. it was a few people's 25th, 50th, or 75th show.

"you, you people, are.. are good."

and then they started playing the pit. the lyrics to which i posted at the start of this thread. as the song began i let out an explosion of energy and then everything started melting down around me. i was gripped by the song, and it dragged me out of reality. it is really quite an inexplicable experience so im not even going to try to describe it. no more life.

after the song ended i went back and sat down against a pavilion and smoked a cig. i watched everyone drift away, just as perfectly serene as i was. after a few minutes i decided to go on a little walk around centeroo before heading back to my tent.

as i walked around centeroo everything began to become extremely jumbled up. all of the stages were switching places, everything was reversed and twisted up, and the ground around me was morphing and melting away. i moved around and quickly became lost in the jumbled up mess that everything was, until somehow i was spat out of centeroo into some random camping area. i had never been to this camping area before, and the campsites were just as jumbled as centeroo was. after looking around for a few minutes i recognised a few landmarks and made my way back to my tent. all of the roads and land around me were a cascading landmass of insanity. once i made it back to the tent it felt as if i was on an island. our camping area was an island in the middle of the cascading landmasses surrounding us.

i told my neighbors how incredible the end of the moe set was and relaxed with them for a few minutes after that. but soon they were getting ready to go to sleep too and everyone at my campsite was alseep, so i just layed down in our main area and relaxed. i watched as everything there began morphing as well. there was obviously no escape from this cascading landmass. as i lay there i watched reality morph apart as the veils of maya peeled away and i became a universal oneness.

 

SOunds like one hell of a trip!

 

hell yeah D. other people can be a far out trip. you really do feel like you're entering their minds or your the same awareness. I've had nontripping ppl say that they felt some psychic energy from me when I was lucified.

I know what you mean about that sexual energy. It's not even directed at anyone necessarily. it's like a fiery ball of it, existing on its own, unembodied and without conduit or restriction.

good story, I really felt it. pretty much made my day.

 

thanks man

and i kind of know what you mean about the sexual energy, but for me it felt like the wavelengths she emitted were twofold. there was what you were talking about and then there was also directed energy. it was only really after i got there and started really fucking screaming my ass off that she really started rocking out, and most of the lyrics in the songs were directed to one person. so it totally felt like she was singing for me. i was probably just tripping lmao!

there is actually already a version of the set uploaded. here it is if your interested:

http://www.archive.org/details/moe2009-06-13.dpav3.flacf16

start it on 'some kind of ride' track 15 for grace potter.

that was one of the highlights of my night.

 

wow desos, quite a trip...only advice i would give u is to drop same time as your friends or just make sure ur with someone with u. i know your really experienced which i def respect but ive noticed im sooo much more chill when im dosed around my friends cus they always remind u that your just trippin ya know/ sounds like a fuckin awsome time tho bro. how old are u?

oh yeah, stupid question: who is MMGT or whatever, ive heard a bunch of people talk about them, never herd of em tho

 

that's my favorite part of trips.
and oh man, about the psychicness.
i'm at the point where i believe i share awareness with mostly everyone i see... i embrace it...

i'm jealous! i can't wait til i go out of town.

 

yea man indeed. i really wish that my friends had stayed out all night with me. but after they said they were too tired there wasn't really much i could do. it was like 4 in the morning, and this set lasted until the next day. it was the third night of bonnaroo... just about everyone was exhausted. i just wasn't because i had spent all day sleeping and getting rest at sets for that night. i wasn't going to miss any of the music that night for the world. and i'm only 18 lol. although i skipped a few grades in grade school so most of my friends are like 19-23.

mgmt is just some psychedelic rock band. the problem is that they only have like 6 good songs. but those 6 songs are really incredible. that and they also straight up sucked at performing live. my friend got to hear 'kids' from the campsite and said it was pretty good though.

check out: time to pretend, electric feel, weekend wars, kids, the youth. should all be on youtube for a quick stream.

i didn't get to hear any of those though they should have just opened with all those songs and then played a longer set for the diehards. i was so ready to hear electric feel and rock out with the girl next to me.

you have no idea how much we were all looking forward to this set, and how disapointed we were.

'hurt' and grace potter were a great pick-me-up after that though! oh and aparently the lead singer from pgroove brock butler came up on stage on the moe set shortly after that, but i didn't get close enough to recognise him and i wasn't there for most of his stuff.

 

Tripping "alone" at bonnaroo has always given me such full trips. so many different, thoughts, emotions, visions, and sounds to be had and experienced.

Your trip sounds awesome and is reminiscent of trips Ive had at roo. I had my trip #7 and #37 at roo and they are 2 of the most mind blowing trips Ive ever had. But my friends and I have also had some uncomfortable trips at roo too(#36).

I totally understand the feeling you got when cathedral came on. Moe. is just complete positive energy.

 

yea it was a perfect song for the moment. there i was falling into a negative spiral and then on comes a song about breaking free. the whole night was just a series of perfect moments. everything was surging with synchronicity. my subconscious almost completely surfaced that night and everything in the world became a reflection of that. i have had dreams about some of the things that went on that night prior to them even happening. some of the songs by grace potter which i had never heard before i somehow knew by heart and had memories of. it feels as if my entire life was leading up to this trip.

 

nice bonaroo report, where's the trip report?

 

Lolwut he said!!

 

just a question, did you have any control throughout this trip or did your emotions drive you to do what you did? because if thats how it goes down I'm a little bit scared of acid. good report though :cheers2:

 

lol that was pretty much my trip report. i don't even know how to explain the trip without also including bonnaroo lol. at first i was just going to include all of the drugs i took at bonnaroo because they all kind of melded together into one 5 day trip, but that was like 10 times as long as this is. what i learned is that when you combine divine experiences with music then what you get is something on a whole other level.

i had control most of the time. i chose where to go and what i was doing of my own free will and was not governed by my emotions if that is what you mean. but alot of the time part of maintaining control is brought about through surrendering yourself to what is happening to you currently. if that paradox makes any sense.

 

one thing i find funny is that no matter how down i am feeling, listening to some of these songs from that day will always make me feel like i am ontop of the world again.

 

yeah...
even that fades.

 

doubt it.

it's totally time to burn a few cds with this setlist and play the shit out of them. oooh ya god just listen to plane crash.

i wish i was able to be at the moe set the whole time that night. as well as the nine inch nails set. as well as the MGMT set. if only i had 3 bodies.

 

it will fade, trust me.
You will listen to these songs over and over again, feeling the feeling they give you, and it will gradually lessen each time as your mind slowly takes possession of the songs that used to inspire your soul.

 

dang man, bummer lol.

or maybe every time i listen to them i will think back to that night, and how incredible it was, and my soul will resonate with the incredible energy that i came in touch with that night. i have never had a more lifechanging, meaningful, powerful, intense, divine, or magical trip than this one. i was tripping for 40 hours, and i was off-baseline for over another week.

 

nope, b/c that's the thing you see
the more you try to grasp onto this experience, the more you will loose it.
time is an illusion, and all your memories are in your mind. What you are thinking back to is an event that does not exist, except only in your mind.

 

i don't grasp it. it grasps me. dude there is nothing you are going to say that is going to convince me otherwise so you might as well just give up lol.