Advice with therapy sessions

So I am currently seeing a school counselor/therapist at my college for anxiety related to my ocd. I initially went in as I had a bad trip from an edible and it was giving me bad flashbacks, but then I just decided this would be a good opportunity to just come clean on my past of mental illness. It's a weird feeling. I've never talked about this stuff in person with anyone before. I don't really count online forums, since it's so much different actually talking about this in person. With that being said, we have had like 4 sessions, and I've basically told her all there is to tell about myself. I think at least. I'm just very confused. I still feel like there is so much wrong with me, yet I just don't know what to bring up in the sessions anymore, and now the sessions have just become long drawn out awkward silences. Is this how a lot of therapy is? This is my first real experience with a therapist. I want to be more expressive, it's just I don't know what to talk about anymore. I've already mentioned my trip, the flashbacks, we've discussed techniques to control flashbacks and panic attacks, already got my prescription for xanax (just in case I have a flashback), told her about my past of ocd, and even about my family situation/college situation and overall gloomy mood. I'm out of things to talk about but I still want to have her to talk to! It makes me feel very positive having someone like her to talk to and I don't want to lose that.

 

I got sent to alot of mental healthcenters as a kid due to domestic violence at home, always refused to talked to them, intill last year I went for anxiety, depression and suicide......... ...ehm.. didn't help me at all so I basiclly gave up on that shit and came to peace with my shit... Your not alone.. and dosn't help I have aspergers too, I can't stop thinkin about the bad shit in the past... the last time I was really truely happy was 6yrs ago.. but my whole life and everything in life turned to shit since she left me... I have no motivation to make my life better.... she was my first love.
and I have trouble getting close to people and hardly bother to try socialize, since Im a huge screw up on that too.
But all this shit led me to Weed, and that takes all my problems away... well till I run out.. lol.
Weed... best shit to have if you dont wanna have a care in the world lol.

 

if you're having lots of uncomfortable silences, you might want to try a different therapist.

 

I'm a tad puzzled as to why you selected this forum to request advice about therapy sessions. Was there a particular type of answer you were looking for?

 

A different therapist may be better, but I would just bring up the awkward silence and see what this one has to say. Maybe he/she is just waiting for you to "spill your guts" about somthin.

 

in my opinion.. they only want you around for more money.. better of going your own path and learning from there.
thats what Im doing, go by the flow.. thats how real life is made is by goin by the flow and try doing things your own way.

 

let it also be added I have a huge crush on her...

 

this is terrible advice to give to someone who is undergoing treatment for a mental health problem.

 

this is actually pretty common with people who see therapists.

 

hahaha, this reminds me of will farell in step brothers. totaly off topic though.

i know what its like though man, i see a therapist because i think i might be depressed, or have anxiety, PD, or something.
whenever i think of an important situation, or something that would just generally stress anyone out, it just gets stuck in my head, and then that is all i can think about. my mind and heart start racing, i start getting weird twitchy feelings in my chest/abdomen, feel like shit, and just cant stop worrying, start freaking out, and then i have to go somewhere where i can be alone, like my house, or a bathroom or something, and just chill and wait for it to go away. i always have to think about sex or something that is VERY distracting to take my mind off things. i am always sitting in my basement playing call of duty or something like that to keep my mind off things (sometimes that even makes me freak because im not very good at it) and that makes me feel mad/sad that my life has come to this just because i freak out over things, which makes me feel depressed. i always feel like shit, and i never go out to hang out with my friends anymore because i just dont feel like it.
so i go to a therapist, and what does he help with? nothing, just asks me to fill out this sheet before every session (how do you feel on a scale of 1-10, how have you felt this week, etc.) and after that, i just feel akward and not really into it.
it really sucks feeling like your not being heard. go to a different therapist, if your budget can handle it.
i didnt mean to rant

 

Why? These people can't help you. Best to take a psychedelic and figure it out for yourself.

 

That's what I do, at least with weed. However, I don't have any mental disorders so perhaps that won't work well with everybody.

I'm not an expert on these things but perhaps you should consider meditation and look up how it could help with your OCD.

 

psychedelic drugs aren't magic pills for people with mental health issues. in some situations, for some people, i'm sure they can provide some benefits, but it isn't a blanket solution for mental illness.

 

Be completely honest they are there to listen do not hold back

 

Meditation is more likely to drive you crazy than drugs. Sitting down doing nothing thinking nothing for an hour is an activity only the crazies do anyway. It's the most boring thing imaginable.

 

LOL at this misguided ignorant post. Meditation isn't a blind process where you "sit down and do nothing", it is a process where you stop going about your normal, non-mindful activities. When you meditate you gain mindfulness over a certain concept (like your breath). Instead of trying to think of everything that is going on around you at once, meditation lets your mind relax and focus on things that are really important (like normal controlled RESPIRATION).

Breathing at a normal rate and not overwhelming yourself with too many thoughts is a good way to manage your stress and anxiety, not just an activity reserved for "the crazies".

 

this is good advice. a therapist isn't going to judge you.

 

Why should thinking about respiration be more important than thinking about my job? In both cases, they are concepts which my brain is occupied with. One is not a higher state than the other.

It is actually the concept that meditation is working and helping you that you are thinking about during meditation, otherwise you wouldn't do it. You are projecting that knowledge that meditation is good for you.

Your belief that you can manage stress and anxiety is arrogant. Your autonomic nervous system controls anxiety as a defensive process, it is there for your benefit. And it can't be controlled.

 

You can't honestly believe this is true.

 

you can't do much about your job when you're not doing it, so there is no sense in concerning yourself with work while you're at home. I personally don't enjoy racking my brain about all the things i can't change when i can't change them, thinking like this causes me stress and anxiety. I try not to think like that when i don't have to, does that make me arrogant?