Thats hard man... not sure what to say. I can sort of relate. My fathers side has abuse problems, drinking, and drugs. My father though, drinks every night as well, always wiskey. I too don't remember a single night when he hasn't drank when i was growing up. Now he doesn't fuck with the neighbors and such, but there have been times when he might not be in a good mood and as soon as he drinks he is instantly pissed. Thats where the bottle is just evil. I noticed this as a kid before i even sipped a beer. I was eating with my family a month ago and both myself and him were drunk. He went off on me saying how i change when i drink. I told him strait up, you change when you drink to, and its every fucking night. One of these days if you don't change your drinking your family will change and you might just be eating dinner alone. I shut him down because my parents are not divorced and he knows what can happen if he doesn't control himself. He still drinks of course, but he hasn't been really drunk since. I guess it sank in because im not 14, im 24. Its different now... People i know who have came clean, drinking, or hard drugs, usually realize the people around them are going to leave if they don't change themselves; they don't want to be alone. At least in my experience it seems this way. Wish i could give good advice... Wish ya best of luck.
I'm sorry that you are dealing with this situation. Your dad is very clearly an alcoholic. Drinking or getting drunk every night, blacking out, the rages, denying that he has a problem, all of the these are indicative of alcoholism. This may be a common problem, but it is not normal or healthy. Yelling, threats of violence, this is abuse. I've heard that children who have been verbally abused are as traumatized as children who have been physically abused. Hopefully there is a way for you to get out of your situation. Is there a relative that you trust that you could stay with? Some links in the sticky thread on this forum might help. I hope that you are able to overcome this.
