Thanks buddy. I have had a lot of near set backs and a whole lot of tragic shit happen since I got clean so it is kind of astounding that I'm still clean. I know this is not the best place to post that I've been clean a year but I felt like talking to you guys, it has been a long time. If you still come on here, thanks a ton BottleFED, SirItchALot, Etkearne, PC, and everyone else. Honestly, I don't think I'd still be clean with out you guys. Being addicted is such a bitch, I don't miss it. Every now and again something will happen that helps reinforce my will to stay sober. A (terrible) example: last week my friend overdosed on Fentanyl. He had to be rushed to the hospital, but luckily he pulled through. Half my friends and family weren't so lucky. I am convinced I would be dead by now had I not gotten clean. Towards the end there I stopped caring about myself, I would swallow a grip of Opana, Roxies, and Klonopin before I went to sleep hoping I wouldn't wake up. For those last few months I isolated myself in my room, too depressed to even talk to anyone. I remember a few times I went without saying a single word to anyone from weeks on end. I literally didn't see the sun or moon for a month straight. Death seemed so welcome. I just couldn't handle being stuck in the cycle of being high, running out, withdrawals, being high, running out, withdrawals anymore. I'm incredibly lucky I found this site and you guys because you really helped kick start my wanting to get and stay sober. For those that know me, you know I'm not the sobriety preaching type and that isn't my intentions. I just wanted to share the fact that today is officially my one year anniversary of being sober and it is a very special day for me. Thanks again guys, but most of all thanks to me for persisting and busting balls keeping myself clean! PS: No joke about the Fentanyl thing. Stick to pills. It's sooo effing dangerous to mess around with. If you do, please be careful man, the last thing we need is more opiate-related idiot casualties!
good for you bro. 1 years a big deal. i no your on a pink cloud enjoying the hell outa it. sobriety feels good dont it? im amazed at how good it feels, id a been clean my whole life if i new. enjoy the good times ek, unfortunately they pass too. congrates again man....
Good job !! You should be proud of yourself as you are. This site is full of good people who care about one another and love to help. What are you doing to treat yourself on your anniversary ?
Congrats, my friend! I remember talking to you a year ago about quitting. I honestly cannot believe it has been that long. Time goes fast. If you ever need to discuss something related to your continued recovery, do not hesitate to post it here or PM me. I am also still doing well with no set-backs, and it has been 1.5 years for me, so it shows that it CAN be done between us.
Thanks again guys! I really appreciate it! @wyliecoyote: Didn't do anything special at all lol. Just hung out and kind of reflected on what has happened the last year. Had a steak and a glass of expensive wine, that was kind of nice lol. @ETK: I'm so glad to hear you are doing well man. I don't really know anyone on here much, apart from what we've posted back and forth to each other. I wondered how you were doing and whether you were still fighting (I pretty much knew you were golden though seeing as you've had a good game plan with the subs and such). Hopefully a while down the road we'll be able say 2 or 2.5 years clean! Good luck as always man! @SirItch: Awesome to see you on here too. It really was your topic after all that really kickstarted me into getting clean. I really can't thank you enough for all the help, advice, and support you've given me. Thanks. I never would have imagined I would be at this point. I know it's a pretty cliche thing to say but I really am just taking it day by day, not really thinking too far ahead with it and it's been working well so far. Good luck to you guys staying clean, we really need all the luck we can get. Good luck to my opi-bros too lol, stay safe with things!
like ek i still remember you getting started. i cant believe its been a year. thats amazing. i dont get on as much now but im glad i checked in. i get busy living life and this used to kinda be a trigger for me but that monkeys off my back now so i got no excuses really. i agree with wc, theirs alot of good people on here thatll support a man trying to get clean and i respect that. 1 year, wow man congrates again...
Eggo, glad things are looking so great for you, i wish you nothing but success in the future in what ever you do, if you can beat this thing called addiction, i believe that you can do anything!!!!!!! Glad i could help in anyway possible!!!! please keep us updated on the on going process!!!!!! again congrats!!!!!!
Congrats sir. Im a little over a year since my last oxy, little less than a year since my last drink. I guess i picked the right day to come back on, a good reminder that hard work pays off.
wow man that is awesome for you. a year is such a huge accomplishment I truly believe that the reason most people don't get clean is because they would rather die than go through WD. both the physical and mental aspect of it.... I don't think anything can even come close to how unpleasant the feeling is. just thinking about the WD is probably enough to make you never want to use again, haha. anyway, congrats man. keep it up. hopefully I'll be as lucky as you.
Sorry guys, this is a very late reply. Thanks guys for the congrats and such. For the longest time that is one of the main reasons why I just couldn't even attempt sobriety. I just couldn't deal with the withdrawals. I could manage a day or two but that was it. It took some very dramatic (and tragic) shit to happen to me before I actually tried hard. It's a very big reason why opiates have such a large relapse rate: Withdrawals are agonizing, you get over that hump and then it becomes incredibly hard pyschologically to keep yourself sober. I just felt like coming on here and posting a few things, just to get a few things off my chest because I don't really have anyone I'm comfortable talking about these things with. Recently (Well, only a week and a half ago) my cousin's husband died from a heroin overdose (yet another tragedy in my life). It was so messed up to me. Even having been through countless funerals that were all related to drugs, I had a very hard time with this one. It was incredibly difficult to sit there and watch his 4 year old daughter walk around, not quite understanding what exactly was going on. I just couldn't stand it, it was incredibly painful for me to see. This cousin of mine was very close to me my whole life and I was just heartbroken to see her like that (especially knowing how losing someone that close to you over something like drugs can feel). I thought I wouldn't ever have to deal with something like this again. I don't really know what to feel about it, I'm mostly pissed off that my cousin's daughter is going to hsve to go through life without her father. Being at that funeral really reminded me of how I was always frightened of my dad passing away from drugs. I've just been in a weird mood since then that I really can't put it into words. It's just difficult to think about. Sorry guys, I just wanted to get things off my chest. I already feel a little better just typing that. Anyways, on a brighter note, I'm still sober and doing pretty well. Hope you guys are doing good too.
I am sorry to hear of you and your family's loss. I am the only person in my family who ever had a "drug" problem (that is, not alcohol only...) so luckily, I have never had to witness something so sad. But almost all of my father's family are alcoholics and although none have died at a young age from it, it is still very sad to simply witness them all together, drinking themselves into a stupor, and pretending it is "normal". I remember when I was about 14, I realized that they (including my father, who luckily has been abstinent for 6 months) were all alcoholics and it was incredibly haunting.
