A question about psychology and bad trips.

A few days ago I had a bad trip. I got caught in a circular thought loop, I'm sure a few people here must have experienced that, or at least know about it. What I want to know is why it happened. I tried searching google, and all kinds of things, and I found out that it's pretty common, but I can't find anything about why. Does anyone here know? Does anyone know where I can go to find out?

 

every trip is different...so only you can accuratly interpret what happened

 

I've had that happen to me. That night after about an hour into it I kept thinking I was hearing rain, but when I looked out the window it wasn't raining. That was the first time I'd had auditory hallucinations so it freaked me out a bit. Then I started feeling really sick to my stomache. And I was having a difficult time thinking coherently so I started feeling scared. I knew that a friend of mine was supposed to come over at a certain time so I went to look at the clock to see when he'd be there. Well...I couldn't figure out the clock. I lost the ability to understand numbers or time. I couldn't tell what time it was or remember when he said he'd be there. I was getting more and more scared and I kept trying to figure out the clock. I layed there scared out of my mind for what seemed like hours, but was only about 5 minutes. When my friend got there I was throwing up. Then I didn't know who he was. I felt that I couldn't trust him. He said I was saying all kinds of weird things. All I really remember was being horribly ill and terrified. I realized later something that may have triggered that: I wear contacts and had always worn them while tripping. But that time I had a slight eye infection and couldn't wear them, so I wore my glasses. Before I started freaking I remember I wanted to lay down and watch my cev's and I took my glasses off. But when I got up I guess I forgot about them, so I was pretty much blind and didn't realize that it was because of the lack of glasses and not because of the lsd. So, I really think that's what did it.

So, my point is...did you do something different during that trip? Think about the events o the day and your thoughts and what may have triggered it. After that major bad trip whenever I would start to get into those negative thought loops I would turn my mind to God. I'd focus on prayer and wanting to have a spiritual experience and that worked to get me out of it.

 

I know why I freaked out, and I did remember that I was on a drug (though I kept thinking it was LSD and it was really Amanita Muscaria).


I just really want to know what's up with our heads that allows us to get trapped in a paradox. I thought the whole world was happening over and over and over again and that hell was realizing it.
What eventually got me feeling okay again was this big glass of water. I was convinced that time was a loop and that I would have to relive the exact same moments again for eternity, but then the people taking care of me brought me some water and made me drink it. Once I became sane enough to have a short term memory again, I realized that I could drink the water, and it would stay drunk. The glass got lower and lower without ever filling up again without someone else's help. This lead me to the realization that time moves forward. I still remember the feeling of amazement and relief when I remembered that I could make things happen.

 

there ya go. amanitas are not the best trip out there. had you been on some good lsd, it might have swung a different way.

regardless, negative thought loops are something everyone must work on individually. i've had it happen to me, but it doesn't do it anymore because i've finally become comfortable enough and ACCEPTING enough to understand that everything is temporary and that the only thing that exists are my thoughts. you are the author of your thoughts and it is your decision to think what you want. you must re-train your mind to remain in the positive and in the NOW, rather than panicking about future bullshit or obsessing about past mistakes.
peace.

 

Be Here Now.


Yea, it does happen to everyone... but it can be worked through. Psilocybin Mushrooms have become my ally now so there is little fear in that department.
Never triped on aminitas though... have to try that sometime... anyways, like NightOwl1331 said "I would turn my mind to God. I'd focus on prayer and wanting to have a spiritual experience and that worked to get me out of it." I think that sums it up pretty well.

 

You'll be all right.

I tripped a few weeks ago off some 2c-i, threw me into an extremely suicidal trip. I felt very negativety for a week and a half. You just have to do things to rediscover things again, and push yourself to think differently.

 

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definitely good advice. try to think differently (and positively).