Hate Rape (wrote this one when I was 14) Hold me down, tie me up, your actions so degrading. Scream at me, don't let me speak, my voice is slowly fading. I still remember the emptiness and the darkness that came to follow. I still remember how you left me, alone and feeling so hollow. The scene repeated through my mind, though seemingly untamed, and faster yet, and faster yet, but stil it was the same. I know to you, it's something you forgot, but to me, the memory lives on. You don't know, but you've caused me so much pain. It's in my head, it's driving me insane. It seems like only yesterday, it seems so long ago, you caused more haunting memories than you will ever know. I sit and cry for hours, and think of all you stole from me. You made me feel so vulnerable, you made me feel so weak. I know to you, it's something you forgot, but to me, the memory lives on. You don't know, but you've caused me so much pain. It's in my head, it's driving me insane. Use me, then you throw me down, like a worthless fucking doll. I tried and tried and cried for help, but no one heard my call. You left me so alone, you ripped away my soul. I tried and cried for help, but no one came at all. The emptiness, the emptiness and the darkness that came to follow... leave me alone, so alone, leave me feeling so fucking hollow. I know to you, it's something you forgot, but to me, the memory lives on. You don't know, but you've caused me so much pain. You're in my head, you're driving me insane.[font="] Goodnight (Almost four years later...) [/font] You tried to break my spirit once, you tried so hard to kill my soul, but if you'd stuck around, you'd see, I'm stronger than you'll ever know. I used to see you in my sleep, you used to haunt me every night, I know that you can't reach me now, and I refuse to cry. I still remember how you left me, alone and empty inside... I still remember the darkness, but I refuse to hide. I hope that you've forgotten me, but I remember what you did, it's just that I don't have the room in my life for that much hatred. I'll never forget the nights alone, so full of pain and anger. I thought you were a trusted friend, but you were just a stranger. It seems so far away now, just another distant memory. I thought I'd never feel safe again, now I know you can't hurt me. I had myself convinced that what happened was my fault, but now I know the truth, and I've thrown away that thought. I hope that you've forgotten me, but I remember what you did, it's just that I don't have the room in my life for that much hatred. I'll never forget the nights alone, so full of pain and anger. I thought you were a trusted friend, but you were just a stranger. You waited for my trust in you, then you threw it all away. Now I know it's not my fault, and I can't cry another day. Nothing could have stopped that night, I know because I tried. You took all that you could get, the night my spirit almost died. You used to be a nightmare, and I refused to sleep... I'm turning out the lights now, I've got better things to dream. I hope that you've forgotten me, but I remember what you did, it's just that I don't have the room in my life for that much hatred. I'll never forget the nights alone, so full of pain and anger. I thought you were a trusted friend, but you were just a stranger.
your writing reminds me of my sisters'. i love how poetry can let you release certain emotions sometimes without having to explain
