10 years pass and Im still trying to heal.

Discussion in 'LSD - Acid Trips' started by SocialDisaster, Aug 30, 2008.

  1. SocialDisaster

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    Almost 10 years have passed since my LSD laced youth. After years of living an extremely normal life, I'm feeling the urge to reach out. I am seeking some like experiences to maybe help me cope. I have know one to talk to about it since no one around me has ever even attempted it.

    I would say my trips were "bad" ones, but a learned experience. To me it opened up a whole world of open conceouse I had rather not seen. Problem is I did see it. Able to see coencidence as no longer just a coencidence, but part of a plan. To some this maybe enlightning, but to me it just confuses reality. In other words it makes me question my reality everyday.

    It eased over some years as I had been extremely distracted. As i age closer to the end my mind is wondering back to that strange situation. So as I said before, I am feeling the urge to talk about it.
     
  2. Sounds all too familiar...
     
  3. stalk

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    Life is psychedelic. Deal with it.
     
  4. StonerBill

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    Why do so many trippers end up deciding that coincidence is no longer coincidence? Hasnt anyone considered that perhaps psychedelics emulate the neurological conditions of external meaning, orchestration, and articulation? It is hard to imagine how a chemical drug could give real things meaning?
     
  5. SocialDisaster

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    I would think anything you emulate is something out of reality. So if you emulate coincidence, you are seeing things for how they really are. You begin to realize there are no mistakes in coincidence. It goes from a human idea(what normal people feel), to a part of natural order I.E space/time/coincidence. This is the problem. It is not fantasized or imagined but a real way of order. Correct society does not have a place for this.
     
  6. stalk

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    That's why "society" is not correct, son.

    See: Amazonian shamanism
     
  7. burnabowl

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    socialdisaster, maybe you should trip again. the trips you associate with your reality are ones you had long ago when you were a different person. you could be projecting the albeit broad perspectives of your younger days onto your current situations and by doing so are using an outdated frame of reference. I've discovered that psychedelia has a completely different and exalted nature to it the more you mature. idk really but it's one theory
     
  8. sw0o0sh

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    If what you speak of is part of a plan that is ultimately out of your control, then there is no need in worrying of such (you can't change it). You won't ever know for sure what is part of coincidence and what is not, .. as you may of noticed you can only wonder of such, .. and it's ultimately your uncertainty that brings you the suffering. Questioning it won't do you any good, but maybe accepting it would in your case. Life is as life is.

    "Accept whatever comes to you woven in the pattern of your destiny, for what could more aptly fit your needs"

    If that doesn't work, perhaps take the reality of the situation into hand. You took a drug that alters perceptions -- and it did exactly that. You had a bad trip that left you with some residual negative emotions/fear/doubt/pain/whatever, and you never let go of it. You choose to hold on by reliving the past, or by constantly contemplating the situation by applying it to your every day life. Just let go.

    Either way or whatever happens, I wish you the best of luck with this situation.

    Peace
     
  9. StonerBill

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    But.. but.. what on earth are you saying?
    whatever you think is real, just becomes real?
    ..i guess thats one way of looking at it.
     
  10. sw0o0sh

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    "Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists."
     
  11. StonerBill

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    threatened? threatening?
     
  12. MovedOn

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    I know what you mean. One of the hardest things for me to come to terms with that LSD showed me is that causality is an illusion. Coming to terms with the fact everything is associative is often disconcerting and always disillusioning. And I do honestly believe everything is associative. If all of reality comes from one point, then that means everything in existence is interconnected, somehow, no matter how abstract, through that point. Some things connected at more and more shallower levels than just the single point. But I do believe it's possible to see reality from that single point, and it is the real thing when you see beyond the illusion of causality.

    The thing that was the next most diffucult to come to terms with is that, metaphysics and physics are actually the same exact thing. The world isn't made of atoms, it's made out of language. Molecular biologists, atomic scientists, these are forms of alchemy. They spoke into a existence a system of language and utilize it to change matter. This function of reality does work with more than just the metaphors and language science puts out.

    Whenever I'm confused I just go back to comprehending things like a plant for a bit a time of time. I mean, imagine a plant getting confused or losing focus or understanding of it's purpose, its an absurd notion. Furthermore imagine an animal doing that, it's also absurd. Existentialism is entirely a human-created concept, one that I believe developed in the pools of people that got so out of touch with spirit, they truly did forget why they exist and then had to start pondering it again. But atleast in terms of figuring out existence through thought, I find it's not that you do figure it out, but rather you just run so many thoughts in your brain for so long that never really line up perfectly that eventually you just get tired of thinking about it and forget about the whole subject entirely. You know a plants bliss is that it never thinks, it feels the flow of energy and follows it. Circulating the energy through your brain to deduce understanding is only using a small percentage of controllable energy in your whole entire body. The brain is an organ you use only to interact with visual and auditory metaphor, to understand reality as a whole you have to use the whole body to think, not just the brain.
     
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    There is no such thing as coincidence, you're most definitely right about that. There is nothing to be afraid of! It is all about synchronicity as what seems chaotic up close is actually part of a beautiful pattern when you look at the big picture. We all have a place and our purpose in life and we must accept this. Now don't be fooled as you are still a player in this game of life. You still have choice and free will as limited as this may be. The idea that coincidence exists is a much scarier thought -- imagine a world where things happen for no reason whatsoever. In a world with synchronicity you can learn how reality works in a way that you can begin to anticipate what is around the corner. As you learn and grow you begin to learn that with a certain action you get a certain result and there is actually much comfort in this. The fact that you are afraid of a life without coincidence boggles my mind. Take some time to think about it as I'm sure you will find that there is much comfort in the world with synchronicity. Learn how to work with the reality that is placed before you which would be impossible for you to do if life was coincidence.
     
  14. sw0o0sh

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    Why not just not worry about whats ultimately out of your control? The whole reason behind useless anxiety and stress.
     
  15. Dan_FLOYD87

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    ONE THING I'M GONNA SAY TO YOU AND ONLY ONE ADVICE:

    1. IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO READ "THE CELESTINE PROPHECY by JAMES REDFIELD."
    >>> just read it.... please. You will not regret it. And yes this is another coincidence.Read it!!!!!. thats the best thing you can do right now...
     
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    lemmie see.... 4 posts. sounds like a PSA. vague and generalized knowledge of lsd, no specific timframe or experience notes. odor of douchbaggery.

    FUCKING COPS.
     
  17. SocialDisaster

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    Dan Floyed , thanks for the info on the book this is mainly what i was looking for. Some reads or philosophical discussion that delves into coincidence, and we are all one conscious type of mantra.

    To the flamer, the trips were very personal and vulgar i dont think details will be nessacary. Oh, and i joined last night. Sorry if 4 post doesn't cut it for you in less then 24 hours.
     
  18. ZeroxBleach

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    Paranoid much?



    In response to the original poster, I can kind of understand what you're saying, though I honestly don't expierence the exact same thing. Since I first took LSD each trip after has shown me wonderful things, but at the same time it has convinced me of things I myself often find horrifying.

    Since I last dosed I have seemingly been awakened to the confusion accompanied with having intelligence and imagination, almost unable to differeniate between the real and the imagined nature. On one end, a part of me knows that some things in life are absolute reality, but another part of me yearns and sometimes nearly convinces me to believe that what I'm seeing is all just a dream.

    Inevitably this ends up frightening me. The paranoia of feeling like everyone everywhere are all trying to get something from me, like they're trying to rape my very existance is probably the most horrific advent I've had.

    I wonder sometimes if this paranoia has existed with me even before my trips, or wonder if LSD has somehow awakened my knowledge of it. It frightens me and often I feel as though I maybe going insane.
     
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    Most of you aren't even aware of the spirits that exist just outside of our perception.

    They fuck with many of you . .

    Learn how to protect yourselves. Physically and spiritually.
     
  20. SocialDisaster

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    I like how you put that , something i can relate to as well. Awakened with a hightened insight or inteligence. Th paranoia bothered me for a very long time as well. That fades as i build up my own self. The more i conform to the normal world the better that becomes.

    On the other hand a good anxiety attack will bring on a paranoid state of mind, which to my knowledge is uncontrollable. It almost triggers a vague connection with the lsd done some time ago. If i had to guess I would say these things must manifest within the same part of the mind and are related. Any info on this as well would be much appreciated.
     

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