Pysnake - read this thread over again. There is support being offered to you my friend. But you have to take it and also you have to ask for it if...
What a lovely way of putting it...
Yes meditation is excellent for gaining more control over the mind. The only real way to be able to control your thoughts is by practicing...
I'm sorry to read this thread Pysnake. 'guy' has given you some really good suggestions, however I would like to elaborate a little more....
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