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And Again I Blog Into The Void

Posted by zengizmo , November 28, 2016 - - - - - - · 665 views

SOME folks would read my words and achieve nirvana. :)

So: WTF is wrong with YOU???

No, no, no, everything is fine, just relax and remember that I am a jerk-ass dweeb. :)

I am just fucking with your head. :)

Or...YOU are fucking with your OWN head, and blaming it on ME...

Holy shit...I think shit just got real...

Ok, ok, relax now...I am not goi...


Deanna Returns From The Dead - Again

Posted by zengizmo , November 18, 2016 - - - - - - · 282 views

Yes, well...she does this repeatedly, you know. Fucks me off then comes back all friendly like...this time emitting smooching sounds on the phone and a big "mmmmm" phone hug.

Of course, you need to understand that before she phoned, I had not heard ANYTHING from her in...I dunno...weeks. Last I knew she was fucking me off for another guy.

But see: We...


Undrunk? Not So Much

Posted by zengizmo , October 21, 2016 - - - - - - · 294 views

Undrunk no. But long missing? Aye, guilty.

The topic most on my mind is one that would take me months of blogging to explore. So I just can't go there right now. Suffice it to say that my "spirit guide" Deanna, after beginning to act like my gf, finally fucked me off for another man...AGAIN!!!

In point of fact, it is pretty much a note-by-note re-...


My Dear Friend: The Irs

Posted by zengizmo , August 25, 2016 - - - - - - · 335 views

Cuz see, the IRS and I have become close pals over the past couple of years, see? :)

Reason being: I have had to file for Currently Not Collectible for three tax years now.

Most folks don't even know wtf I am talking about when I say "Currently Not Collectible."

Cuz see: This is something the IRS does not want to advertise.

Most folks would never fi...


Eating Reality

Posted by zengizmo , August 25, 2016 - - - - - - · 301 views

So I am just getting drunk as usual, tryin to have a little fun, and suddenly: WHAM!!! Young chick in Philippines is in my face with her real-life problems that I have no way of fixing!!!

And I just wanted to relax after a long day and have fun, but this chick is not letting me do that...

Cuz suddenly it is all about REAL LIFE, and what SHE NEEDS to e...


The Dictatorship Of Physiology

Posted by zengizmo , August 17, 2016 - - - - - - · 270 views

My body requires sleep. AGAIN. :)

My body is a dictatorial piece of shit. :)

It gives me no choice, really. Right?

If I don't do my body's shit, it WILL make me pay, major big-time.

Bodies are the Tool of Satan, in point of fact. ;)

So: I am going now to do my body's shit, cuz I don't want no trouble, see.

I just have a statement to make: I have sin...


Pissing Folks Off

Posted by zengizmo , August 16, 2016 - - - - - - · 323 views

My dear Deanna thinks it is WAY funny when I talk about checking my previous night's facebook posts for social atrocities. ;)

If I lived in Saudi Arabia I would have been beheaded by now...

American society lets us get away with SO MUCH.

Lots of Americans mutter under their breath a lot, of course, and maybe post cranky comments in online forums, BUT:...


Everything, Again

Posted by zengizmo , August 13, 2016 - - - - - - · 252 views

Again I have drunk two bottles of wine in one night. I am addicted, see. :)

Last night I vaguely remember going to bed. Well, I mean, I went to sleep on my living room sofa. Cuz that is where I sleep nowadays. I haven't slept in my actual bed since early last year.

However at some point I woke up sitting at my desk chair in front of my blank comput...


What The Difference Is

Posted by zengizmo , August 12, 2016 - - - - - - · 240 views

I need to understand the difference between:

1. Posting blog shit to stroke my ego...versus
2. Posting shit that helps folks understand spiritual paths.

As I have repeatedly told my spirit guide Deanna in my semi-poetic doggerel way: I ain't/No saint. ;)

Shortest poem I have ever written. :)

Latest-breaking news is: The spirits are helping me wi...


Fucking With My Spirit Guide

Posted by zengizmo , August 10, 2016 - - - - - - · 300 views

A couple nights ago I wrote a facebook PM to Deanna asking her why she thinks she can block me any time she wants. I asked her, "Is it because you think you have some kind of power over me? What if I blocked you? Would you still love me, as I have tried to love you in spite of all the nasty shit you have done to me?"

And then I blocked her. :)

She still...


The Arena Of Public Opinion

Posted by zengizmo , August 08, 2016 - - - - - - · 211 views

My blog audience seems to be dwindling...except for a few particular blogs. And I hafta say: I particularly like those blogs also. ;)

I said in my very first blog entry that this blog was mostly for myself...to learn better who I am. And that maybe some other folks would find some entertainment, at least...possibly some insight.

I have a distant re...


The Prayer Of Jabez: 30 Days, Or 30 Years?

Posted by zengizmo , August 07, 2016 - - - - - - · 206 views

Everything Deanna has done in my life has led me inexorably to posting my innermost thoughts in public in my HipForums blogs. I used to do my blogging to Deanna only, in MySpace PMs and then in facebook PMs. Now I publish my blogs publicly on HipForums...and occasionally on my facebook timeline, still. I can see what Deanna has done to me over the years t...


Games & The Spiritual Pathway

Posted by zengizmo , August 06, 2016 - - - - - - · 201 views

Tonight I had my 17-year-old daughter Melissa over to my apartment for dinner and a movie.

The dinner was Fettucine Alfredo with green salad.

The movie was The Game , directed by David Fincher.

Melissa drank orange juice. I drank Barefoot Pinot Grigio.

Cuz that is just the kinda guy I am, as you know. :)

In the olden days, during my marriage to my...


Blogging? Or Flogging? To Flee, Or Not To Flee...

Posted by zengizmo , August 03, 2016 - - - - - - · 187 views

Wow, that is a pretty promising blog title, innit? :D I wonder if I can manage to do justice to it in the actual blog text!

Right. I might need more wine for this...be back in a few...

So, duly fortified by psychotropic substances, let us see what I can do!

How fucked-up do you need to get before you change? :)

Whoa...now THAT is a bit flogging-lik...


Did I Mention...

Posted by zengizmo , August 01, 2016 - - - - - - · 181 views

...that Deanna first acted like my gf, then started fucking with my head, then got me fired from my job, then ignored me for years and years?

Some of you know this. Not many, tho.

It was good, tho. It got me better at fucking shit off.

She got me fired almost 13 years ago. Now she is talking to me on the phone and via texts and is saying she will bring...


Blogging Without Words

Posted by zengizmo , July 29, 2016 - - - - - - · 195 views

Well, this blog is clearly bullshit, innit? :D "Blogging without words???" :D

Blogging, like, REQUIRES words! Right!

So wtf is this bullshit I am herewith espousing, folk?

"All day long there is speaking, yet no word is ever spoken." - Roshi P Kapleau, The Three Pillars of Zen

So that's it! :) End of blog! :)

Oh, I know, you came here seeking enterta...


My True Addiction

Posted by zengizmo , July 22, 2016 - - - - - - · 239 views

Deanna was fucking with me tonight. She was subtle, but she let me know she was fucking with me. I was drinking my wine, but: wtf? I felt more awake than relaxed. I asked Deanna: Why am I not getting drunk???

Finally she let me start feeling drunk. Sweet surcease of sorrow. :)

"Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dy...


Chicken Chimichangas & Trans-Substantiation: A Drunken Protestant Rant

Posted by zengizmo , July 18, 2016 - - - - - - · 407 views

I went looking for a late-night snack, and the best I could do was green olives and a peanutbutter sandwich. How pathetic...

A few nights ago I made chicken chimichangas.

They were SO greasy. And salty.

I had never made anything like this before. It was an inspiration from God.

Ummm...what IS a chimichanga anyway? Hold on, Google is my friend....



True Ranting

Posted by zengizmo , July 16, 2016 - - - - - - · 231 views

So, I have been easy on you so far. :) Now we are going to get down to some REAL ranting!!! On the subject of: Hipforums blog organization.

Well I hafta tell ya...I looked every which way from Sunday to find a link to add a new blog entry...and it was so hard!!!!!

There is only one place I FINALLY found to create a new blog entry. I needed to specif...


Haunting Providence

Posted by zengizmo , July 14, 2016 - - - - - - · 239 views

I am on vacation this week. That doesn't really mean a whole lot in the overall scheme of things, except that: I don't need to work. So I can do whatever.

I don't have a lot of money. I don't even have a lot of inclination to get out of my apartment, except that: Yeah, now and then I kinda think, "I need to get the hell out of this apartment!"


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