My time has come
there is only one way now.
The choice I must make
Holding the knife so tightly,
I close my eyes.
I feel the pain of the blade cutting across my guts,
I know it will be a long and painfull death,
But I fear it not for I am ready.
How got to this point is no longer important.
Now there is no pain left.
I have left me
wating my mortal body die as I begin the acceend
I long for what's about to come.
I am Alphe and Omega...The begining and the end
by Rudyard Kipling
When I was a King and a Mason -- a Master proven and skilled --
I cleared me ground for a Palace such as a King should build.
I decreed and dug down to my levels. Presently, under the silt,
I came on the wreck of a Palace such as a King had built.
There was no worth in the fashion -- there was no wit in the plan --
Hither and thither, aimless, the ruined footings ran --
Masonry, brute, mishandled, but carven on every stone:
"After me cometh a Builder. Tell him, I too have known."
Swift to my use in my trenches, where my well-planned ground-works grew,
I tumbled his quoins and his ashlars, and cut and reset them anew.
Lime I milled of his marbles; burned it, slacked it, and spread;
Taking and leaving at pleasure the gifts of the humble dead.
Yet I despised not nor gloried; yet, as we wrenched them apart,
I read in the razed foundations the heart of that builder's heart.
As he had risen and pleaded, so did I understand
The form of the dream he had followed in the face of the thing he had planned.
* * * * *
When I was a King and a Mason -- in the open noon of my pride,
They sent me a Word from the Darkness. They whispered and called me aside.
They said -- "The end is forbidden." They said -- "Thy use is fulfilled.
"Thy Palace shall stand as that other's -- the spoil of a King who shall build."
I called my men from my trenches, my quarries, my wharves, and my sheers.
All I had wrought I abandoned to the faith of the faithless years.
Only I cut on the timber -- only I carved on the stone:
"AfterT me cometh a BuilderT. Tell him, I too have known!"
Deep within the darknes of my soul is a hunger,
a hunger wanting to escape the prison of self,
longing to cast away the shakels of captivety,
awaiting to set my spirit free.
within me is will to escape the life I live when I am awake.
I know the light is there and I catch a glimpse of it every now and then.
I fight to to be released, I want my freedom like never before.
I close my eyes, and dream for a while,
I feel the power of enlightment shine through me,
and I know the time is here,
I know my time has come.
Finally I am free
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