I'm on an antidepressant called Lexapro, but I don't take it for depression. I was diagnosed with OCD the other week after having a panic attack of sorts at 4:40am... I slept for an hour and a half that night and I went to bed at 11:30... OCD sucks man!
Basically I was told that I sit around and think too much and that I have an overactive brain. I've always been pretty awkward and shy, and then sometimes randomly personable and friendly with everyone, but the thing is that I am completely aware of my infrenquent social behaviors, but I'm not in control of them. That's really gotta feel fucked up when you think about it, huh? Well, it sure feels fucked up when it happens!
I started lexapro, and while a had a few side effects for the first few days (one was the one dreaded male sexual side effect... it SUCKED!!!), I did however, notice that my mood and my worries about everything under the sun started to fade away. I was able to sit down and relax and enjoy things again. I went bowling, jammed out like a rock star, drank some beers with the guys, and did stuff that I only do when I know I'm in a good mood. So far I haven't really worried or overstressed myself with much of anything, and I really think that here on week 2 of my treatment that it's really helped.
However, my "girlfriend," if you wanna call her that, she had some terribly adverse effects from lexapro the first day that she took it. I think that a lot of it came from her relatively low daily intake of food (she's not like anorexic, but she doesn't eat much). Krysty was all weirded out and shaking and dazed out of her mind. She described it as being stoned without the mental high... and it really seemed to add on to her depression. She quit taking it after about a week or so of going through hell, and right now the sunshine and good weather are what she thinks help her depression the most.
Different folks, different strokes, right?! Anyways, I'm outta here for now... it's time for some Urban sociology and Neo-Platonic and Hellenistic philosophy! w00t!
Peace...