Revelation

I had the most awesomely awesome revelation tonight. Like a light bulb, no shit. I've never had one like that before.

I've been really depressed, and angry. Medication was not working. And I started to work it out in my head. I was resentful of being a wife and a mother. The more I looked at it, the clearer it became. That I don't have to resent it. I'm good at cleaning. I'm good at nurturing. I have a supportive husband who does whatever I ask. I work while he's in school, and he watches the kids when I work. Being a wife and mom are really important, and I guess I didn't see it that way. Mom is the one who makes the house into a home, you know? And I haven't been doing that. I thought I had to give up what I used to be, but I don't. Everything that I used to be, is what made my husband fall in love with me. And it's ok to be a little neurotic at times. I'm not a terrible person for wanting to go out sometimes, and I don't have to always go out with my husband when I do.

Sorry for going on. Lol. I'm just really excited, you know? This is a huge weight off of my shoulders.

Good for you!
You're lucky to be a wife and a mother. Lately I feel like that's what I want right now. To be married and have a kid. But I'm definitely too young and poor to do either of those. And I don't even have a boyfriend. Oh, I can't wait.

But i'm also on my period, so it could just be that talking.

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