i've done both in various amounts in the past, and i've personally got some perceived differences between the two that have been pretty close to what you guys have said, but i never really paid much attention to dose (until last time, i'd mostly usually only ever took what my gf at the time recommended, shes the one i always did opiates with and she was much more knowledgable about it than me, and never steered me wrong, so i trusted her judgment....i knew what i was taking, and at the time knew the dosage, but it was a while ago and i forget about this stuff largely)
anyway, i always felt hydrocodone was good and oxycodone was good, they seemed pretty similar to me, but i always thought that oxycodone was a bit more in-your-face as well.....also, while i thought they felt pretty fucking similar, hydrocodone also seemed to have given me a tad more nausea in the past than oxycodone. i couldn't describe either one as NOT being relaxing, but i always sort of liked the more "hardcore" feeling of oxycodone....i dunno, i'm sure MUCH of it has to do with what the dosage at the time may have been. like i said, i didnt pay TOO much attention to it.
anyway, after that 15mg oxy night, which was a bit too much when i added the little bit of alcohol and lot of pot, i really wanted whatever pills i could get the next few days. when i found out my guy was out of pain killers and somas, i sank so low as to steal two of my mother's prescribed muscle relaxants....cyclobenzaprine...not great, but pretty nice, get 20mg, just a little to drink, and a joint....nice way to end a long day, relaxed and eventually drifting off to sleep. i feel very ashamed for taking medicine from my mother like that so i could just get high. yeah, i've grown to love pharmaceuticals.....
but i've got an addictive personality, have alcoholism and dependence on things like coke, pot, and painkillers on both sides of my family which until recently i was largely unaware of, except for one particular uncle. i've come to terms over the past few weeks that i have a drug problem, and am a generalized "addict" even if i do not have a hardcore addiction to any specific drug other than nicotine and a strong marijuana dependence. i've spent some time worrying about myself and thinking things over, and i've come to the conclusion that yeah, there is some very strong temptation, and i would LOVE more painkillers, muscle relaxants, benzodiazapines or general sedatives...but...despite the fact that i'm not addicted to one specific type of these things, i have great potential to develop one, and i already have a drug problem of sorts as it is. i think i need to take a while to reexamine whats really important to me, and where my life is really going, and i know i'm not going to quit smoking pot, but i need to try and cut out almost everything else, at least for a long while.
i love drugs in general as long as they aren't stimulants. psychedelics and pot have always been my forte, but lately i've just been taking whatever comes my way that may be even a little bit pleasant to me. i just think i need to be more careful, and i'm even thinking of checking out a 12-step program or something, like AA. i've heard good things about it from a friend of mine that used to shoot a lot of dope. i know right now i'm not giving up my herb, and i still will have a few beers every once in a while (not often at all, really, i'm not much of a drinker), but i think perhaps going to a few meetings will give me some much needed perspective, and maybe help me meet some new friends i can relate to, but that i DONT have to be getting fucked up with all the time.
i dunno....i dont regret almost anything i've tried, except cigarettes. but my lack of self control can easily catch up with me....i just think i need to live a little more cleanly. i think that while psychedelics have benefitted me a lot, i've gotten to the point where i'm even at risk of becoming destructive with them. i just need to slow down and take a look at myself, you know?
i dunno...i'm rambling, and i know it....just getting some things off my chest.....kind of been in a real rut, real down and out lately....and not just a little bit scared of myself.